Leng kuan's voyage

Xmas & New Year soon!

2011-12-22T17:20:00.000+13:00

It's almost year end already...

I'm now enjoying the 2 weeks year-end shut down (compulsory leave) after a year long of sweat & blood.

Bad times are coming, just a week before this, my company retrenched about 10 people. It's brutal, they could have done it in a better way.

Anyway, I'm still SAFE for now. With lesser manpower and lesser budget, but more expectations and more demands, it feels like combating in a war with no guns but hoping to win the battle. Haizzz, tough life.

People around me are getting married, almost every other week I can see wedding photos/ROMs in my facebook homepage. Marriage is a joy, isn't it? It's a blessing that you have finally found someone to share and live your life together for the rest of your lives. When is my turn? Argh... don't bother, just cherish every happy moments together, and whatever that's on the paper, it doesn't really matter.

As mid-life crisis starts kicking in, at this stage of life, you either think of stepping into management level, or thinking of retirement after becoming a 'tai-tai' or 'mum-to-be', or otherwise struggling with what-to-do-next? To quit or not to quit? I guess, everyone has their own constraints, in a dilemma of a turning point, or a dead-end.

I guess we often forget, life should be a celebration, whatever choices that has been made, must lead you to somewhere you are today, that shaped your tomorrow.

Suddenly I became very philosophical. I wish I know how to practice what I preached.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to an exciting 2012 dragon year ahead, though it doesn't really blend well with the Rat, but I hope that I can embrace all the challenges and hiccups and stop cursing!

Cheers to all my friends! I still love you though I never call.

p/s: Do call me for tea! I have not changed my number.

In the Fall already?

2011-08-21T14:45:00.001+12:00

August is slipping away soon, nothing much has changed though. Same old job Same old life.

It makes me wondering, where exactly am I heading to? Age is catching up, definitely a downhill road... what else can I look forward to?

There are a list of holiday destinations on the world map that I longed for. But that is quite contradictory to the saving plan for a decent four-wall with a roof. Argh, so hard to decide.

Settling down in a comfort zone, there are a lot of reasons not to do anything else, simply easy to become a computer/Iphone geek. These technologies makes me lazy & sometimes stupid - for wasting time doing nothing.

Socials no longer interest me... I have nothing much to share with strangers/acquaintance. Starting a small talk that is completely pointless - and pretending that I'm interested to know more, that actually doesn't help to ease stress or anything at all. I don't know how some people love it, or is it the fact that they really need attention?

There are several traveling blueprints coming up this next half of the year - Seoul, HK, Shanghai, Mumbai, All work and no play. Stress is way more than stimulation.

At times I just feel like I don't want to do anything else, I just need you by my side.

I think, that's good enough for my world, my present and my future. =)

First quarter of 2011

2011-04-25T02:51:00.000+12:00

Just a blink of eye, April will be ending pretty soon... and there goes my first quarter of year 2011.

I haven't been actively blogging... writing about my thoughts or scribble some comments...

The whole first quarter, I was swamped with workloads for one of the biggest event in my company. It's finally over. I had too much nightmares of it... It was exorbitant. The thought of it makes me wanna puke, I just don't wanna think about it at all.

I just came back from Shenzhen for another conference, and 2 more days of leisure by my own. I felt abit disturbed, when I told people about extending 2 more days alone, and they were like: "Ha??? ALONE AR??? YOU NOT SCARED MEH?"

If you stayed out of those quiet alleys and nightclubs... anywhere it's just the same. It's just another city. What should you be scared of? Just step out of your comfort zone, you will see more things out of the "tupperware".

I just needed 2 day of rest. A really good rest. I'm mentally and physically drained.

Like always, I wanted to quit....

But then, Someone said to me: If you can't change the environment, change yourself.

I have always wanted to leave, I know I am trying to escape from the reality and fact that I'm dealing with the same shit and the same people in a rotating chart. I knew that the grass is never greener on the other side, perhaps I should grow up and stop acting like a fresh graduate.

Whatever my future holds, it depends on how I shape it now. How I focus in my career and How I manage my own problems. Someone also told me, 5 years later when you think about what you said today, you could just laugh at yourself to see how childish you were.

I believe I'm very temperamental. Venting anger easily and I can't see over the mountain. I need to calm down and see what I can do, what is my strength and why I should be here.

Everyday for me is like a life-course. I don't feel quite connected to my friends anymore, most of them are getting married, It's more like a norm than a joy. I don't quite feel the excitement. Or am I just being cold blooded?

Of course I have my own wedding plans. Well, more like a saving plan. Without money, everything is just an illusion.

If I could be persistent about the challenges I face, I trust that I could be a better manager, in all aspects of life.

I know I can do it....

It's just a matter of time.

2011

2011-01-08T02:25:00.001+13:00

All I want for this year is a good health and everyone that I love is safe and sound.

What could be more important than your own life, that's what I'm trying to tell myself everyday.

Some dreams are meant to come true someday, let's just wait...

Some goals will be achieved somehow, let's just try our best...

Some pressure will makes you insane, what a shame I never learn to be sane...

Anyway, I'm trying to kick off my new year with some optimistic thoughts, this won't be an easy year for sure... Nevertheless, I must prove to myself, I am tough enough to take it, even though deep down, I know I'm not.

ROMs seems like an everyday thing in Facebook. For me, I just hope that love and romance should make way to the next level when it's time! Even without a ring, happiness can be as simple as getting a cup of morning coffee.

Sometimes, I wish that the world is coming to an end one day, at least I really know what I want to do is just to spend the rest of my living days together with my loved ones. Now that life is forever, things are always taken for granted. I wish we all knew our "timeline".

Anyway, just before new year eve, I was happy that I went to Venetian with my darling. It's like a dream come true for me, I've ALWAYS WANTED to come here!!!

Yeah well, luxury comes with a price, now we will work our ass off to get the money back again. T_T

Hopefully in 2-3 years time, we will make it to Las Vegas instead.

New Year Resolution, I can't be bothered anymore as I never seems to accomplish my mission.

I hope I can be a happier person. Seriously.

I know it's a week late, but,

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE.

The year is ending...

2010-12-13T01:57:00.000+13:00

As the year is coming to a conclusion, each year, I'll also try to conclude what I've been doing for the entire year...

But What's bothering me Now, It's the negativity at work, the feeling is so strong every single day, I felt so down, I just wanna quit...

I felt that I don't belong where I am.....

What should I do?

Work, Eat, Sleep

2010-11-20T22:52:00.000+13:00

Nothing much to blog about recently... Work, Eat and Sleep. That's my daily routine. Travel? Don't bother...

Common complaints of shitty works & colleagues, I guess we're just money slaves... Work or Quit, Can't really change much of that huh?

Thinking about skipping work everyday when I open my eyes, these little thoughts, obviously not motivating and not encouraging...

wtf is work-life balance? when you spent most of your time at work. that's work-life balance.

Passion? Pui....
Challenge? Pui...
Endurance? Pui...

I am desperate for a better plan....

Once upon a time, Sky Diving in Lake Wanaka

2010-11-04T03:54:00.000+13:00

COOLNESS!!!!

NOV

2010-11-02T03:59:00.000+13:00

It's November...

a sign I'm getting older...

but this year 5th,

Someone special meant something very important to me.

I can't wait to go home...

XoXo.

=.=

2010-10-15T03:58:00.000+13:00

Trying to put myself at ease for a few days...

But when you are back....

Crap.... @_@

a year ago..

2010-08-29T02:13:00.001+12:00

how i miss....

and a year later...

how i live...

Sighs

2010-08-25T03:20:00.001+12:00

Tell me, what's the most important thing in life?

When day passed by and you realized how time flies. Reminder of each friend's birthday on Facebook, pathetically informed me how old I am getting, and how well I should plan for my future?

Craving for?

Luxury living:
as in huge credit card debts?

An ownership of a property or vehicle:
as in the never ending car + house loan/mortgages?

An ideal holiday?
as in just throwing your money for a couple of dayz. Yes of course it is worth it. Everyone needs a break.

So in the end, the life cycle repeats.

When you wake up the next morning, everything remains the same. Work/Stress/Work/Stress...

And when you see people dying everyday on the newspaper, and you're completely helpless with the situation, though a penny might do some good, but it doesn't really help much in the big picture.

Imagine people living on the same planet at the same time, just happened to be born at a different location. Why do some people dying to be alive and why do some people living to be dead...

The flood victims struggle to get food, we struggle to get... a life?

I don't know how this world make sense anymore. Everything appears to be a lie. Everyone armed with their own shield trying to portray a better image of themselves. Vain is a thing, but afraid of shame is another thing.

The fear of losing out in the rat race, the comparison with peers, the imbalance work & personal life, the social networking site might just make you more miserable.

In the end, what do you achieve?

Ready to go...

2010-08-02T00:38:00.003+12:00

Things always come when you least expected.

I thought about giving up job hunt in Singapore. Sick of waiting for calls and running to and fro for an interview. When I found out there's a new ad in jobstreet on the position that I've been waiting for weeks, I felt like a fool. Fucking Pisses me off and so I started browsing new ones.

There came a call on that day itself. So, I decided to give one last shot.

If things doesn't work out, I will buy a car and settle down in KL instead.

HOWEVER...

It did. The offer came few hours after the one hour grilling interview. =.="

I signed it the next day and shall report to work tomorrow.

The phobia of work stress is straining me already. I knew it, with that signature, I sell my soul to the company once again.

It is the same job position from my previous one. The differences are, a different company, more work load, more shit and more stress. >.<

Thinking about it already make me depressed.

The most downhearted thing is, I've to leave my most important ones behind. In the pursue of money, the sacrifices are inevitable. I shall learn to bear with the misery and pain alone in the city of blue.

The sunday morning separation came by quickly, I got the last seat of the bus, when I looked through the bus window, saw the familiar face grinning at me with his arms crossed, standing patiently right next to my mum, chatting and waiting for my bus to depart.

At that sight, I told myself, this is the man that I wanna marry.

I'm back in Singapore to earn more money... and I believe we shall achieve our 2 years plan as we desired.

to America,

I'll work my ass off.

After slacking for a year, it's time to gear up and prepare to battle.

Let the war begin...

Back for good

2010-07-13T17:51:00.000+12:00

Time really flies, it has been a year since I quit my job in Singapore. Now that I'm completely broke again, it's time to pick up the pieces where I left and start all over again.

Just a couple of weeks ago, I was running to and fro Singapore trying to find a job. With the help of headhunters, I managed to secured some interviews, but the first 2 was a contract job. I rejected. Then after, I started my email blast. The feedback was really quiet. Maybe due to the Missing In Action year that gave them a second thought. My phone hasn't been ringing. Yes there're a few annoying calls from headhunters asking if I'm interested to be a financial consultant? =.=" No thank you. There's also an interview appointment where the employer ditched me for MC, and another one I ditched them before they have time for me. It was a pretty awful place. Total Nightmare.

Anyway, I was eyeing at this MICE job which I've successfully gained the director attention and currently waiting for their management approval. All still pending, it aint a great job after all, new head count, endless work and high level of stress, but I still need to start somewhere, hopefully this could help me leap somewhere better. If all goes well, I should be starting in Mid August, otherwise, I will start another round of email blast in the next 2 weeks. So you'll be seeing me in Kuala Lumpur for a while. Call me for tea Please.

Well the football fever has ended. Nothing else to expect at night. This world cup couldn't have been more dramatic, with oscar nominees for best perfomance by all overrated rich ass footballers, and the myth of a physic german underwater creature, of course with the overwhelming bets that make the world go round, well well the world need some enticing excitement every 4 year. This is pretty amusing. But why is Puyol holding the world cup in every pic? So selfish.

In conjunction with the football matches in the first 32 round, I've met up with a long lost primary school mate in KL that kinda change everything. Since you guys are well aware, Yes yes thanks to facebook; announcing something hasn't been much more easier than ever. Hee. It was too random, too sudden, out of the blue. Cupid strikes us. I know, I am still in shock too. My unemployed life couldn't be much better now, with someone special to share everything. Love is so in the air. I don't mean to show off, just what I felt right now. It is a perfect time. However, I'm going to Singapore soon. This LDR thing is killing me, not sure if I'm able to take it. Let's hope everything will be fine. Finger crossed, God bless.

I am now settling down for good. 5 more months to a new year.. wow... achievements? resolutions? changes? Nah.. can't be bothered.

Something is more addictive now. Love is so poison. :)

姜志昂

2010-06-23T13:57:00.000+12:00

This blog entry is about Mr Keoh Chee Ang.

Suddenly thought of writing about him. He's one of my best university mates throughout the years. And the first to tie the knot at this stage. I'm so proud and so happy that he found his true love after so many ups & downs in uni life.

I met him through 理华 (Persatuan Bahasa Tionghua USM). The first impression was awful (Desperate Nerd asking for phone number). But then eventually I found out he is a really nice person. He used to commute me home with his bike after class (I forced him). Or sometimes spent some time sleeping at my house because he had no where to go while waiting for his next meeting (He's using me).

He always told me about his Dream Love and Dream Romance with his Perfect Partner and Perfect Honey Moon (=.=) But his love in uni always 3 minutes heat and I gave up listening to him.

I managed to find some really old school pics with him out of my antic photo album collections...

First Year of uni...

We even danced together.... Very 样衰!

做情侣MODEL...

第二年...

第三年...

到毕业...

到终生大事...

他没什么好,就是人缘好..... ^_^ 我真的替你感到高兴哦...

祝福你们这对新人... 白头到老... 永结同心.... 恭喜恭喜!!! ^_^

27 Days in UK

2010-06-07T04:03:00.001+12:00

Finally finished editing my UK Travel Blog. Took about 2 weeks to complete it.

The whole experience was too remarkable. If you ever have a chance, I would truly recommend you to travel solo to any places you like because it was such an exotic feeling, you could never imagine yourself actually doing it. I just wanna share what I've encountered.

www.27daysinuk.blogspot.com

You're most welcome to click it and hope you don't fall asleep while reading. =p

Take your time. Cheers.

Gone to North

2010-05-06T06:17:00.000+12:00

I will be backpacking in United Kingdom from 27th April till 23rd May.

A really incredible experience so far. Will definitely blog about it when I'm back home.

Stay tuned till then. Take care everyone.

LOVE

the departure

2010-04-15T10:08:00.001+12:00

The leaves are turning yellow, the temperature has dropped to cooler day & night, daylight saving now turned NZ 4 hours ahead from home, the time has come… How I got here in winter last year, passing thru chilly spring, hot and cold summer, and now windy autumn, welcoming the winter once again. The four seasons, remind me of how time flies, how my journey started and how it is going to end.

Through my eyes, I’ve seen a lot far more than I could ever imagined. I’ve encountered too many things, too many stories, too many food-for-thought, I can’t really digest right now. Maybe someday I will blog about it. I’ve met too many nice people around here. Be it a stranger, a passerby, a colleague, a flatmate, the warmness of saying hello, the gentle smile that comes along, the kindness that they offered, it says it all. Every morning, saying hello to the person that I came across on the street, it’s already a great day to start.

It has been a solitary pursuit in this past 2.5 months, not that I don’t appreciate companionship, things are entirely different when you travel solo. I see the world in different ways, and how communication works better with strangers. I haven’t been very honest for the past few months, a lot of things happened before I started travel alone. There were joy and there were anger. Some sweet, some bitter. My mind can’t seem to let go certain things. Being a scorpio, I am not a very forgiving person. I don’t know when we will talk again, like good old friends. But, one day, I believe, I will be able to talk to her, heart to heart. And not just a lame hello anymore.

They say if you never travelled, you never grow up. It ‘s true. When you are somewhere else, you suddenly appreciate the things that you often took for granted at home, such as Food. Not till you realize it’s an essential survival tool in life. I am overwhelmed by the Chinese (from China) working here. Being them, hardly know a word in English, making a living usually in a Chinese owned place. I don’t know how they do it, they got a working permit, brought their spouse, giving birth to a baby here, (with interpreter in the ER, amazing isn’t it) building a family, receiving residence status, and then stays permanently here. Their survival spirit, makes me feel ashamed of myself. Being a university graduate, I achieve nothing and only uncertainty. At least they know, they want an important change in life. Chinese are usually very friendly when they know I speak Chinese. It’s so strange, yet it feels so warm. The touching part is that, they are willing to lend a hand. The only thing that I’m proud of my dad is that he sent me to a Chinese school for education. And that makes me feel at least a bit proud of myself for being able to speak & read & write in Chinese, even though it’s as broken as my English is.

There is a part of me that changed significantly, I do prefer silent moments than noisy crowds. Peaceful and quiet. Internet connectivity doesn’t bother me anymore, to me, getting addicted to facebook and doing nothing facing the screen waiting to see other people’s comment is not very self-worthy. I am trying to skip that as much as I could. Though I must admit sometimes I will just sit and stare at the facebook homepage blankly. I often felt quite miserable while doing that at the same time. Friend’s updates and comments, jeez, since when true friendships are mended in cyber space. ‘Someone ate a burger somewhere. Oh it’s so yummy!’ Friend A: I want it! Friend B: I want it too! Friend C: I want it three!' Thanks for sharing the burger but I hate that cyber connection. I need more soul & spirit and more compassionate feeling. Not just virtual words.

One thing I like most about the country, it’s the simplicity way of life. Ignore Auckland, I’m talking about all other smaller towns. No extravagant fashion, no extravagant brands, T-shirts and shorts and a pair of jandals, occasionally a hoodie in cooler days, ignore the 3 inches high heels, walking bare feet is a kiwi culture. Things are less complicated, people are more patience, there’s no need to compare your wealth or LV bags, 2nd hand shops are like goddess to me, good bargains less than 5 bucks and there’s no complaint about it! Why the heck in the city, people struggling to earn more just to get those fancy stuffs, making others jealous and so-called upgrading yourself? Is that, happy? I don’t know. I do realize there is a devil in me that turn on the city-mode automatically, the greed, the desire, the kiasu-ism and I feel rather pathetic. Unsatisfied just about everything.

I started reading books.( I must confess I could never finish reading a single book in the past few years) I do realize I am quite a shallow person with zero knowledge. When talking to people, there’s no significant content in the entire conversation. Unless those who are willing to talk more, aren’t really interested in the conversation. More about something else. (Make a guess) Anyway, I know, I have too much more to learn. It will take some time, but, it never too late isn’t it.

I started watching movies like I never did before. Downloaded ones, I grabbed from every single soul that owns an external hard disk here. Every interesting plot of a random movie amused me in a certain way. It makes me wondering why I can’t write a good script for my own life. It cultivates some flashbacks and some thoughts. Emotionally touching and filling.. I haven’t party in a long while, though I did attend some house parties threw by kiwis, I found it very boring rather than entertaining. All night long, I was sitting there holding a beer and repeating the same answers to the same questions: “where are you from, what are you doing before this? Where are you going next?” again & again to random people. Not like they will remember at all, everyone is more into booze and getting drunk. I am not really in that kinda mood. Maybe, yes, I chose to be Sober, I chose to become a boring person.

Through this journey, I’ve learnt a lot. In search of my lost self, I finally understand what is missing in my life. A Family. A sense of belonging. I realized I haven’t been significantly attached to my family bond for a very long period. Come to realized it when, I am envious when I see families picnic-ing at the beach, I am envious when I see families eating out, with laughter and jokes, with manners with love and with respect. I am envious when I see older couples holding hands. I am envious because all these never happened in my family history, or if I could ever recall any sweet memories together. The whole upbringing was filled with fear and hatred. I guess that’s a missing puzzle that always leads me on the run. I’m trying to find that missing piece somewhere out there.

But, 8.5 months away from home, not a very long time, but, I seriously missed home. Though it isn’t a perfect under-one-roof picture that I craved for, the unconditional love showered from my mum miles apart is still unbelievable strong. After battling with her ultimate reluctance of letting me go this far, against all odds and all rational philosophy of life, well, I still managed to do it BUT at least I know, someone is always there, waiting for me to come home…

The last leg of my voyage, I wanna thank all the people that walks in my kiwi life, be it good or bad, I learnt a lesson of life from you.

Goodbye New Zealand.You will be dearly missed.

P/s: And no, I don’t know any eligible kiwis to bring home. Maybe the population has extinct. I’ll try my luck further up north.

Hibernate mode

2010-02-04T15:25:00.001+13:00

Hi everyone.

I'm now in a perfect paradise. Sun, sea and sand makes my day.

Small town. Lovely people. Peace of Mind.

I'm gonna hibernate here for 3 months till I fly home. Don't think I will blog during this period.

It's the best time to isolate from the cyber world and make space for myself to sit back and relax and have a little thought about my life and myself.

So, thank you for clicking in. See ya later.

the end of something beautiful...

2010-01-28T13:50:00.000+13:00

It has been almost 6 months since I'm wandering around New Zealand. Time flies and I can't really accept the fact that it is a brand new decade and I'm going to be 26 soon. Resolutions, I've no time to think about it yet...

I was on the road a month ago... doing the to-do-things in new zealand and clearing off my check list.
If you ask me, what's the most amazing thing you've ever done in your life?
My answer can simply be: the 1 month road trip in new zealand south island.

What's really remarkable about this trip is the fact that we all worked really hard for months before the journey... trying to save enough penny so it can be a total enjoyable trip without worrying about the financial woes. I mean working under the bloody hot sun for 9 hours a day for approximately 2 months isn't exactly the worst thing but the side effects on the skin and body damage can really last forever..

But it was also for the sake of the 3 months visa extension with the requirement of working in horticulture or viticulture industry. And we (Angie & me) managed to get it extended till May. But the poor guy - Ryan's application was rejected as he only worked in a chocolate factory. He has to go home...

It's a fate that we met Ryan - (a Msian guy who is single and lonely and has a car, and yes, wai ling, it is your friend you recommended from facebook) to travel together with similar enthusiasm.

We did all sort of things... bungy, sky diving, sea kayak, trekking, walking, camping, boating, cooking, dining... etc. It was really memorable, travelling thru the Hot and Cold days... getting all wet and getting sun burnt, drinking alcohol (almost every night), playing cards, playing the slot machines in casino, keep on eating chips, chocolates and biscuits and the bloody bread with tuna. Ahh.. lots of sharing.. lots of laughter.. lots of fun... I know it's impossible to experience something similar again. 1 month free & easy travel, without commitments and with no time limit, total flexibility to wake up late (yes, like realllyyy late), stop over everywhere... here and there. Ahh... the best of everything I've ever had. Well of course, no journey is complete without arguments... venting tempers at times and having different thoughts in a debate.. developing a high level of tolerance is indeed needed... But I'm glad it all ended well after all....

I've compiled a video of the whole trip. A special dedication to my travelling mates - Ryan & Angie..

Thank you for the best journey in my life.

It's time to move on, I have to leave to another place tomorrow. Got a new job there (Blog later). I'm not coming back for CNY (heart breaking) and my return ticket is BURNT (It costs me a bloody RM2000... T_T)... I'll be flying all the way back to north island alone... after 6 months travelling with Angie, we are going to be apart now... leaving this beautiful piece of land... I might come back in Autumn, depends.

But I know, things will never be the same again.

Bungy Jump - I DID IT!

2010-01-11T01:00:00.007+13:00

Well, bungy has always been a to-do-thing in my life before I die and since ages I heard about it... and I recall watching the contestants in the amazing race leaping from the bridge with the latex cord on their feet... it's not just about adrenalin rush, but it feels more like committing suicide.

But Still, I wanna DO IT!!! Hehe... ^__^

I don't wanna lie but I am completely Freaking Out when I was about to jump. When I stepped on the edge of the jumping board and looking down the river, there's nothing to hold on and the wind is so strong it could blew me away, yet I'm standing still with my shaking legs and trying to take a good picture so I don't look so chicken.

I wasn't looking all that pleasant though. I queued for like 2 hours before it was my turn. There was a huge crowd (it was new year's day), the crews were giving a motivation crash-course to some of the jumpers who were hesitating during their turn after counting down several times (which causes the long wait).. the wind was soooo freaking strong and I had to stand on the bridge with my trembling feet & fingers (I'm not sure it was cold or fear) for 2 freaking hours.... It kinda kill the mood a little and I was having a running nose!

And then Finally it was my turn, and hey without any further delayed, the crew started counting down 5--4--3--2--1 and FUCKKKK I HAVE to JUMP!!!!! OMG!!!

This is Crazy... I Know. But it was a nice experience. The entire feeling of fear just lasted like 3 seconds and then I felt myself hanging somewhere up & down the bridge before catching up with the skipper down the river. Once is enough I reckon.

The price aint cheap though. Costs NZD175 for the jump and another NZD80 for the photos & videos.
(NZD = SGD)

Secondly it is nuts. Yea, Really Nuts.

But this aint the worst, it's only 43 meters, I chose this place in Queenstown Kawarau Bridge because it was the first place in the world where Bungy was originated. There are many others and the highest bungy in New Zealand is a freaking 134 meters called the Nevis Arc , but hell no, I can't take that man, no way. seriously. But my traveling partner - Ryan, he DID it!!! But too bad he did not purchase the photos or video. So I can't show you the horror of it. But, just imagining it is good enough to give me goosebumps.

I got video of my jump here. Check it out.

Bungy Jump in New Zealand = Checked.

Next up - Sky Diving. ^__^

p/s: I'm still halfway thru my road trip in South Island, the journey has been amazing so far, took thousand of pictures, I'm too lazy to get it organize, maybe later.

On a road trip

2009-12-25T14:18:00.000+13:00

After 5 months in New Zealand, I finally managed to save enough money to travel to South Island.

It is a looong anticipated journey and I will be on the road for approximately 1 month with limited internet access.

I will blog about all my encounters when finish spending all my hard earn money (which is running out FAST).

I'm currently in Christchurch celebrating Xmas but there isn't any celebration at all other than christian prayers in the cathedral and almost 95% of the shops are closed. T_T

Anyway, Merry Xmas and Happy New Year.

Cheers.

I am back...

2009-12-14T09:37:00.004+13:00

It has been a month since I left this on hiatus mode. Yeah I know some of my closest buddies still browsing this every now and then and I am sorry that I am not updating. Actually, one of the reason I stopped writing it’s because I don’t wish my personal life to be intruded by some idiots who still like to stalk on my life and leaving anonymous comments despite several warnings. Fucking annoying.

But anyway since this is a dot-com thingy I can’t really filter the audience unless I locked it and there’s no point for me to change to another domain either because eventually it will be googled. So I am back here again… and now moderating my comments just to be stalker-proof. But don’t get the wrong idea, I appreciate genuine comments and thoughts from you guys. It motivates.

I’ve decided to re-blog again… as I feel that I need a channel to voice out my feelings, a sense of belonging I reckon. This is my page, a lifebook to flip thru when I get old. No more naked truth.. for it attracts horny men googling keyword such as ‘naked’. Now I am just trying to write down some feelings of what I’ve been thru, for it best describe the bits & pieces of me.

The last month was full of ups & downs… I’ve moved out from Stock Road. A place where I first thought it was hell as there’s no internet connectivity and no signs of shops nearby. Everyday after picking strawberries, got home and laze around my bed and having movie marathon from my hard disk. Cooking was the best thing to do during free time. I attempted baking a banana cake. But it turns out… not really nice. But anyway, it was a first attempt mixing flour. More efforts to pour in next try. Our 5 german flatmates were awesome in cooking. We often exchange food to try. East Vs West. Theresa loves to bake, sometimes we have surprises on the table. It is really sweet!

The most poignant part was the surprise birthday party and family dinner they threw in. Well, with reminder from Angie. It happened right after I published my post about the discretion I opted. And then when I stepped into the house, the table was preset with a square chocolate cake with 25 candles on it and another strawberry cake topped with whole lots of strawberries. Both cakes were baked by Theresa & Carol. Balloons, party hat and wall posters all around. It was really touching.

At that night, I had a really wonderful dinner too. The tabletop setting was a real tender conscience. The Beautiful Pink Roses from the garden, tablescaped with candlelights and the limited cutleries from our kitchen. I never had such a warm-hearted western style family dinner before. The two great chefs made us Grilled Lamb Chop, Broccoli & Cauliflowers with Bread Crumbles and Baked Potatoes and enhanced by the classiness of a bottle of Red Wine. It was a night to remember, forever.

Everyday was filled with laughter. Tagging along on their old convertible Honda to work, they are really cheerful young hearts. And cursing the strawberries was another routine. Yes, fuck the strawberries.

Starting from the 3rd week, the fruits are not growing and our wages has decreased about 50%. It was really hard to save and sustain the running expenses. So we have tried many ways to find other jobs. Calling and texting contractors, friends, who-so-ever. And finally we got positive feedback from a friend working in a vineyard that offer regular hourly wages and they need people immediately. In a day notice, we packed our bags and moved out to the city backpackers.

The departure was too sudden. We only managed to notify our flatmates in the morning when we are leaving. My heart sank when I told them. Theresa burst into tears. And Carol followed. And then me. There’s no time to have a nice farewell as the vineyard job starts the day after.

The night when I moved into the backpackers in town, I cried so hard I can’t really remember the last time I did so. There’s internet connection in the room, and for the first time in my life, I was really reluctant to be connected again. All I wanted to do is go back to the place where there’s nothing, but you make the most out of it. I would never meet someone so special like them again.

Working in a vineyard is what I wanted to experience in NZ. And till now, for a month, oh my god can you just kill me please. Working hours 730am to 5pm daily (Sometimes off on Sunday). The weather is just killing. The sun UV is so strong it can really cooked a fish and there was a week when it rains whole week, the whole place is so wet, the grass, the vines, my feet soaking in my wet socks in my wet boots, my body (even with rain coats) it’s COLD and hard to walk. SHIT!

What we are doing now is tucking wires and bud rubbing.

Elaboration:

Bud rubbing is a seasonal vineyard job carried out in late spring to remove unwanted growth in the lower trunks of grapevines. The job entails bending or squatting beside the plant while physically rubbing the buds from the trunks using thick knobbled gloves . (BACK PAIN)

Wire Tucking - There are rows and rows of VineTrees and each row has between 50 and 300 VineTrees, 3 Trees to every post. Depending on how big the tree grows, we have to unclip the top wire and then clip it into the middle clip or vice versa so that it can support the grape clusters when they grows. But the top wire is above my head and some of the tree branches are tangled and obstructing. You have to yank and pull them out, and sometimes the bloody vines will slap onto your face and you will eventually freak out and end up breaking all the vines. Some wires are really tight, you have to pull with your mighty strength and clip it back. (NECK PAIN, HAND PAIN)

Fortunately I am working for this really nice supervisor who has patience and endurance for us despite our extremely slow speed. I’m thankful I am not fired till now because if I were him, I will fired myself after a week.

Maybe, you don’t really know what I am talking about but doesn’t matter. It is not exactly a very tough work but some stubborn vines, the long hours and prolonged sun exposed will actually make you die faster. There aint any toilets at some blocks so usually I had to pee at the bush.

My total body damaged has augmented from Leg & Back Pain, to Shoulder, Hand & Finger Pain. In conclusion there isn’t any part of my body is working well. All my joints are kinda cracked. T.T

One more week and I will leave here.

I can’t wait to travel any longer...It is a journey a Longed for...

On Hold

2009-11-16T21:54:00.000+13:00

Due to various reasons, I am being quite emotional and will not be updating this blog until....... God knows.

Cheers.

p/s: I'm actually thinking of Ending this blog. We'll see.

Happy Birthday

2009-11-05T12:41:00.001+13:00

And so, the day has arrived once again. As usual, I don’t get bowled over with some big bash party or late night orgy, it has always been peaceful and quiet, though there’re some beeps on my mobile phone, some birthday wishes text from friends.

November has never been a good season. Either it clashes with extremely important examination the next day, or it is extremely peak period at work. That was what happened the year before, and the year before, and the year before and before. As Always.

This year, nothing exceptional. And with the 5 hours time difference, it is worse. Those wishes will not come at my time of midnight. But I did received 3 smses from my NZ friends. That was thoughtful.

I wanted to get numb, bought a carton of Bourbon Coke. Actually it was a treat to my fellow German housemates (they are lovely to stay with). A bottle of Red Wine, which I intend to drink on my birthday night. Just a toast to myself, I thought it would be good enough.

It is 5 minutes to 12am, I lit on the candle on the table, placed it alongside with my Bourbon Coke bottle, switching off all the lights in the house. Everyone is sleeping. There I am, lying on the couch, feeling the silence of the night, while waiting the little clock on my bottom right hand corner of my laptop screen turning to 12.00AM. Finally, Happy 25th Birthday, I said to myself in my heart.

I know, birthday has always been overrated. Frankly, I don’t wish for anything this year. I just want to enjoy the day and be happy for being alive for 25 years. It’s a quarter of a century and the prime time of being an adult. You can either still be single and fabulous or start being frantic about marriage and going down hill. It always gets complicated. Money and sex are the roots of all evil and the reason everyone is slaving for. The greatest pretender is the one who succeeded in convincing others by showcasing how colorful their life is but it never was. It is just merely a cover up of how miserable and pathetic their heart and soul truly is. I am so sick of these lies. I realized whatever faith that I have in people so far, after shutting the door, it lies the ugly truth. It’s just nothing but an empty shell and people always take me for granted. I don’t want this no more. I don’t want to expect anything anymore.

I am glad that I’ve stepped out of the box. Making my first step to a nomad journey, it’s a great breakthrough in my mid twenties. I mean dumping a job that provides 5 star hotel luxury stay around the asia pacific region that my ex-company has to offer and went all the way down to picking fruits in a farm. This is a bit insane but I have no regrets. Now that I am slaving in the strawberries farm every morning, work time started at 630am this week and scheduled to work everyday till summer, with frozen fingers before dawn and half broken back and aching leg muscle at the end of the day... my whole body smells like shit from the muddy path… If it rains, the wind that blows can cut through your bones, last week the weather hasn’t been too kind to us. It was raining cats & dogs and I almost die in the pouring rain.

Sometimes I can’t help thinking what the hell am I doing this here? And then I recall every bits and pieces of the bitter memories from my previous work, I can still remember every fucking shit I was in and every single line of conversation from the hot water I’ve been. I realized I am here for a reason. Maybe, being here wasn’t that bad after all. I really had enough of the dramas and I am writing a brand new life book. Everything is a good lesson depending how you look at it. Life is not always about satisfying the idiots around you, I think I need to gain some satisfaction of my own and quench my own thirst. Accomplishment at work doesn’t give positive reinforcement anymore. When passion dies, you know it is time to leave. I don’t give excuses to hold myself back. I always believe, if there’s a will, there’s a way. Therefore, I am still hanging on here. For 6 more weeks in this farm, and I can indulge myself in a month long vacation in the south island.

Can’t stop myself for feeling depressed at this moment, like previous years. Instead of being surrounded by people wishing me, I think I prefer to get through this day discreetly. I skipped work today, I seriously don’t wish to spend my early mornings in the farm, not on my birthday.

You know what makes me happy? Sitting at the wooden table at the void deck, having a set of Half boiled eggs, a simple toast with butter and sugar, and a cup of coffee for breakfast. It’s certainly enough to make my day. I don’t wish for anything extravagant at all.

Recap of things is what I’ll do during new year which is barely 2 months away. So I’ll keep it till then. I’ve walked 50 minutes to the nearest library to get online.

And today, I’ll get a puff because I feel like doing it.

Thanks for being there, my friends. You know who you are. I know I haven’t been too thoughtful to restore the friendship bond but I certainly never forget the good and bad times together in the past.

A toast to me, myself and I – Being 25 and Being Alive.

Cheers.

p/s: This post was written before the clock strikes 12am and was edited and posted today.

Strawberry Picking

2009-10-26T13:28:00.002+13:00

I know I have been disappering for a while. I am now staying in an isolated place with no internet connection and no transportation other than hopping on my housemate's car to town once a week to buy a week supplies of food. And today is a public holiday so I tagged along as well to find an internet cafe in town. But I still have no idea how to get back home because they are going somewhere else. Maybe hitch hiking. God bless.

I have a new found hobby staying here, cooking and reading and enjoying the sunlight on a sunny day. Kind of like the stone age except the fact that I still have a laptop for movies marathon every night.

Picking strawberries is certainly NOT a fun job as it sounds. It really feels like living hell. Start working at 7am or 8am till mid day 3pm-4pm. Freezing cold in the morning, my fingers are numb and right past 9 something, the sun is so bloody HOT it burns my entire body.

Bending down to pick and squatting for around 7-8 hours under the HOT SUN, can you imagine how sore my back is? Try walking like a duck and you will know how I feel.

COMPLETELY WORN OUT. As the wages are counted by kilograms, everybody is working hard to try to find more fruits. And somedays there's no break or lunch when you are too far out in the farm. Freaking hungry and freaking exhausted and sometimes I felt like fainting in the middle of the farm because of the heat.

Some paths are not really pleasant to walk... Get all muddy & wet even with the hays. The gumboots are not helping because it's freaking heavy... So I took it off and walking barefoot.

It stinks and it's Disgusting!

We pick every other day, maybe sometimes 2-3 days in a row and take a day off because they aint much fruits to pick everyday, strawberries need time to grow.... I do admit I am a very slow picker, I aint earning much from this. It's not compatible with the soreness I get. My hands look like Indian now cause we can't wear gloves. I am not sure how much longer I can stand this job... I mean how much my body can take it... We'll see.

Please appreciate the fruits you are eating...

It doesn't come easy...

Paradise...

2009-10-13T23:19:00.001+13:00

Just came back from a round trip in Coromandel peninsula...

Too beautiful... had too much food... too hilly roads... too tired now...

I am leaving Thames to Hastings tomorrow. I found a job there so I am packing my bags tonight... It's a 7 hours bus ride... @_@

I'll probably be out of connection next week. No free wifi I guess.

Will update when I can. Going to sleep now...

Cheers.

a bit of Thames...

2009-10-09T21:35:00.002+13:00

Here's some geographical images about Thames...

Thames is actually the gateway to many places particularly those heading towards the Coromandel Peninsula (Whitianga, Tairua, etc) It's usually a stop over for travelers before continuing their journey up north.

From Te Puke, it was a 3 hours journey by bus.

It used to be a Gold Mining town until the gold began to diminish and till now still being the biggest town in Coromandel with a population of 8000 people.

Nothing pretty much to see actually.

There's a war memorial for a good look out. Can see the sea water color change (Brown, orange, blue).

The sea shore is muddy....

Most shops closed at 5pm and on weekends. Well, It's New Zealand.

And my favourite place of the town - Pak n Save. (the cheapest supermarket in NZ I reckon)

Some images where I work & stay.

I am staying in a dorm room. There are only two dorms here so the beds are grabbed pretty fast and eventually become a mix dorm sometimes. I slept few nights here and there.

Basically I am sharing room with other backpackers that come and go everyday and usually I can't recall their names unless the person is super friendly (or good looking). Meeting different nationalities. Awesome. A lot of Germans, I don't know why. Out of 10, maybe 6.

And of course housekeeping is my main task of the daily cleaning. Dorms are easy.

Double Bed are annoying... Many layers... But still good way to learn.... (I never make my own bed nicely at home)

There're 2 blocks in this hostel. Since there're two of us woofing (Angie & Me)... we rotate our duties.. Daily clean or Big clean in the house...

I did a big clean - some climbing with a ladder wiping out cobwebs outside the house and killing at least 10 spiders ... and day clean - Washing toilets with disgusting bloody stuffs (usually it's not that bad, cross finger ) and cleaning the oily kitchen and dumping the scrap and garbage everyday...

Yeah that's basically what you can expect - Work for accommodation.

In a backpacker hostel is still manageable. As it is meant for backpackers, usually travelling alone or maybe with a friend. The place is not ideal for sex. That's a good one. Otherwise... hmmm... should expect some 'stuff' during housekeeping.

I don't wish to see that... Hopefully.

in Thames

2009-10-04T22:27:00.003+13:00

I am currently woofing (work for accommodation) in a backpacker hostel here. Doing some cleaning & housekeeping (omg).

This place is a small town but still big enough to have a supermarket and some banks. There are however some beaches nearby but it's muddy and brownish (pretty sad, I thought there is nice ones before I chose to come here.) Not fascinating at all. :(

It's another 1.5 hours drive to those nice crystal clear beaches around the Coromandel Peninsula. Will try to make a short trip there sometime. In fact, I am going on Wednesday.

I'll be here for a week or two until I heard news about the strawberry picking job.

No free wifi around but I am stealing one. :P

Will update with more pictures in the next couple of days. Cheers.

Bad Day

2009-09-30T15:01:00.001+13:00

I quit the job today.

I was unlucky as I was swap to another team under an extremely rude & uncivilized obese woman and another evil aged woman giving crude remarks every single minute about everything I do and keep bitching behind my ears. Wtf.

Oh well, the seasonal job is ending this week anyway, I don't wanna stand there being humiliated for even 1 second longer.

I miss my old team and my nice & friendly supervisors... Sad to leave here with raging feeling though.

Tomorrow I am leaving to another town. Hope it will be a better day.

Kiwi & Me

2009-09-27T12:03:00.012+13:00

Around 2 weeks in the kiwi packhouse... you guys must be waiting for pictures... so here there are.

A typical work day begins at 730am. The shift ends at random hours. Depending on the orders. Sometimes could be 4pm, sometimes 6pm or even 8pm. Sometimes it could only be 3 - 4 hours. Sometimes there's no job at all.

Basically what the packhouse is doing for the season now is Kiwi Repacking. This process is to ensure the best quality of the kiwis that has been harvested and packed earlier before exporting to every part of the world.

Speed and quality is what they emphasize on. Every kiwi has to be squeeze to see if there are soft, rotten, or stains and it will be removed and replaced. We have to write our names on the box after checking.

They QC some boxes randomly every hour and the supervisor will usually take out some 'problematic' kiwis and asked you to be more careful on your check. Well, I must emphasize here: Everyone also will have 'problematic kiwis' cause different people different standards.... Not only me okay... :P

There are hundred of pallets to be clear everyday... Almost everyone here are casual workers... mostly are on working holiday visa as well. The job is seasonal and once the season is over, everyone will be jobless. It's a good place to work for backpackers as the money is good and after the season ends, you can go nomad again. There are hell lots of Malaysians, Taiwanese, South Americans, Hong Kie over here...

The job requires standing and head down all day ... (Need Salonpas for my neck & shoulder the first few days)

There are 15 minutes breaks at 10am, 3pm and 6pm. Half an hour Lunch break at 12.30pm.

They called it 'Smoko' for break time here.

Everyday my daily hope is to wait for Smoko as the work is seriously BORING and the time passes so SLOW I could die sooo easily. Coffee & Tea and biscuits are provided. I think I will gain many pounds if I continue to work longer cause I keep on drinking milk tea.

Wearing the aunty hat and beard mask during work... As you know the kiwi is a very furry fruit... The fur is all over the place.

The best thing is you can bring home some kiwis everyday. So there are unlimited kiwis to eat. They also have Avocados but that one very bland taste lah.

You must be concern how much do I get paid for this job? Put it this way, the minimum wage in New Zealand is NZ12.50 per hour. I get slightly more than that. For a day work, I could easily earn more than NZ120 if the hours are long.. and you can do the calculation for a week then.

The repacking job is ending this coming week and we will be out of job... So, I will be back on the roads again until the next job comes in Mid Oct. (hopefully I get it)

So now you know the kiwis that you are eating, could have been checked by me...

Sure no problem one. :)

American Breakfast

2009-09-22T23:03:00.001+12:00

Today I'm sooo into the mood of making a nice breakfast for myself (and for Angie also lah).

Sausage + Toast with ham + Sunny Side Up Egg + Golden Kiwi + Orange Juice...

Can Pass or not? :)

If got chance I can cook for you also next time... Just let me know... :)

p/s: I know the egg a bit out of shape lah... first try ma... :P

Te Puke

2009-09-19T11:41:00.003+12:00

I found a job in a kiwi Packhouse last week (that's why I started to hate KIWI fruits).

Hence we travelled all the way back to North Island to this place called Te Puke - The Kiwifruit Capital of the world.

The journey was very long eh. Have to take 8 hours bus from Wellington, boarded the 3 hours ferry again. Considered flying but the cost is tripled the amount of land and sea transportation.

So anyway, I am now in this small town. Last week we stayed in this H.B.Backpacker Hostel. We had other Msians roommates for a couple of nights and 2 Taiwanese gal for a night and 1 HK gal for another night.. It was fun meeting new friends though the place is abit yucky. Well the reason was the facilities are pretty old and the kitchen utensils are really dirty. Somehow I feel that the people staying around there looks like some sort of prison inmates. They get drunk and yell like crazy at night which is pretty annoying.

Anyway, It feels good to re-experience the Good old days like in unviersity hostels and meet new friends, watch movies on my laptop, cook our own meals, gossip with roommates and talking craps. Very fun eh.

My Jagong Soup 101 lesson from Ms Chin Wee Ching.

We just moved in to a campervan yesterday which is our company hostel. It is quite cosy. I quite like it. First time experience living in this cute little cabin... It's pretty shaky actually, once you move or walk, you can feel the momentum easily and the whole van is shaking. At night, luckily they provide Heater. Or else we could have freeze to death.

This place is so freaking far from town. Without transport, I'm totally handicapped. Have to bother people with car to fetch. The wifi is weak. Uploading takes forever.

Still new in the packhouse so will try to capture some pics during work maybe next time.

I have 4 days off this weekend. Not because of Raya, but somehow there's no job on Mon & Tue. Shit.

No Job = No Money.

Haih...

To South...

2009-09-06T12:53:00.008+12:00

After bugging Joel for a week, I found another host who is willing to take us in for 2 nights.

He’s staying in a very fancy apartment, like a studio suite. Every interior in his place is so stylish and classy. The spare room he offered is like a hotel bedroom. Superb.

I especially love his kitchen area. Very neat.

This is my host - Brendon. Friendly and good looking eh (but N/A)

Failing to secure a temp job in Wellington, I've decided to move on to south island to meet another Malaysian nomad - courtesy of DreaMachine - I decided to meet her friend - Ryan in Blenheim. (He worked in a chocolate factory there and hinted that they might have vacancies)

So, We took a ferry over.

Leaving Windy Welly at 8am to Picton. The ferry ride took 3 hours and 15 minutes and costs NZD50.

From Picton, took a 35 minutes bus ride to Blenheim.

I am so lucky I found a cheap room. It costs NZD100 per week with Free internet & Free Laundry. Though it's a 5-bed room, it is not occupied. So we have the whole huge room to ourselves!

And this is my bed for this week.

In Blenheim, a place with Hilly landscape, small town and lots of wineries.…. However without a car, it’s quite a distance to everywhere. Most shops closed at 5pm. The city is so dead you could hardly do anything unless you have a car to drive around.

So the best way to spend the day is, go Hiking... and we did... for 6 Hours!!!!

I kinda like the feeling of sleeping in different places every other week. Waking up in a new place the next day and never fail to find a kettle to make myself a cup of Nescafe. Then after, Not knowing what to do, what to expect… wandering around the nearby places. Being a nomad like now… It can be quite amusing.

I can see different people in different places everyday. Different streets leading to different roads. Different culture and different lifestyle. Different town and different suburbs. It makes me feel more contented with life. I always recall the days where I dragged my feet to work on a 10 stations MRT ride. Though it was only a short 25 minutes journey, I seriously felt like going to hell everyday. I always tell myself, I don’t want to spend my life taking this train ride forever. And I’m really really happy that I’m no longer taking that train ride. At least for now.

Meanwhile, Job hunting is still in progress.

So, where is my next destination?

Like a dandelion, Gone with the wind.

First Skiing Experience

2009-08-26T08:36:00.011+12:00

Leaving Taupo to Whakapapa Village, which is near the National Park, it takes around 1 hour drive.

It's a pleasant scenic drive along the road...

As we did not have advance planning for this earlier, most of the ski resorts in Whakapapa Village are fully booked at that day because it was a Saturday and it is Ski season. After trying asking a few places, I finally got a room in this Skotel Alpine Resort.

Well, I was trying my luck in this resort and initially I asked the Receptionist : Is there a room tonight? and she said Sorry we don't. I was not surprise though and was about to walk off.

Fortunately, there was this man (the manager - my saver) standing beside her and said, yes we do have some rooms left. Then the stupid receptionist checked her computer and said Oh we do have!! .. STUPID Idiot!!!! I almost got stranded for nothing you know...

So, we took the room for 3 person which costs around NZD105 per night. Masa stayed only for a night before going to Auckland the next day. The 2nd night for 2 person was NZD95.

The best thing about most backpacker hostel or resorts in NZ is they have a Kitchen.

The food on the mountain are very expensive so the best way is to cook ourselves.

This is really simple but save money lah...

The next morning, Masa drove us up the ski field. From Whakapapa village it only takes around 10 minutes.

Whakapapa Ski Field is the largest ski field in New Zealand located at the top of Mount Ruapehu. Pronounce as Fa-Ka-Pa-Pa.

We paid for the Discovery Package for NZD95 each which includes 2 hours ski lesson (for first timer), ski gears and chair lift for a full day.

But, we didn't know that ski gloves are not available for rent. So, we had to buy at the retail shop for NZD25 (so expensive.. duh)

I also rented a ski jacket at NZD16. After paying, we collected our ski gears.

This is Happy Valley. A ski field designed for beginners and first timer or stupid people like me.

We started with 2 hours of ski lesson. This is my instuctor - Ally. We joined the lesson at 1030am and we were lucky because there were lesser people and we splitted into a group of 5 with Ally so we got more personalized attention.

After the lesson, we played ourselves for another half a day.

The whole time I was falling falling & falling. I had problem stopping even when I did the 'Wedge' with my ski board. :(

The next annoying thing is everytime after I fell down, I need to put my ski shoes back into the ski board and it takes FOREVERRRR because my leg weighed a ton and I can't tucked in back into the ski board. Arghhhhh so tiring man....

I stepped and stepped and stepped and stepped and stepped... -___-"

Then I wanted to try this... it seems fun, just hook that thing between your legs and it will bring you to the top again.

But I'm so stupid I can't get hold of that hook and fell. Soooo stupid.

So, I gave up and went to take the chair lift instead. But I was equally Clumsy & Stupid.

As I did not know how to ski down from the lift, I took off the ski board and carry with my hands.

First Ride, when I got off the lift, I was walking too slow and was hit by the chair and fell.

Second Ride, when I got off, Angie wanted to ski down but she fell and knocked me down.

Third Ride, when I got On the lift, the ski board was too heavy and it got stucked on the ground and I'm trying to lift it up BUT instead of that, I was dragged off the lift and fell flat on the ground and got hit on the head by the Chair lift behind. Walao so damn stupid.......... -___-"

Okay, anyone who is good at skiing, I'll pay you to teach me how to ski from the chair lift OKAY?????????

Around 3.30pm we left as we need to return the gear by 4pm. We couldn't find the resort shuttle bus so we Hitched Hike down to the village. =P

Well, How can I conclude my first ski....

It was indeed exciting to see & play with snow for the first time.

I didn't know that skiing is such a TIRING sport... that night itself, my whole body was aching so badly and my muscles HURTSSSS..

But, Skiing is one of my to-do-things in NZ.

SKI = CHECKED.

p/s: I wanna do it again though I am stupid. =p

Rotorua & Taupo

2009-08-25T16:01:00.011+12:00

So, after leaving the farm in Warkworth, We (me & angie) stayed a night at Auckland before heading to Rotorua to meet up with Sam (the guy who intro me the farm).

We stayed in 1 of the backpackers hostel downtown cause it's nearer to the bus stop. It was really crappy cause the roommates are freaking messy.

And so we boarded the Naked Bus (the cheapest long distance bus in NZ) which costs us NZD24 each to Rotorua.

The journey took 4 hours.

Upon arrival, Sam & his Japanese friend - Masayuki picked us up. Masa bought this 1998 Camry at only NZ4k (with airbags) Cheap ya!

We checked-in to the Top 10 Holiday Park and a cabin for 4 pax like this, includes shower & kitchen, cost around NZD130 per night.

They cooked dinner at night for us. Hehe. The Most cost effective way to save on meals.

We went to the Agrodome the next day where we pay NZD25 for the entrance fee.

A sheep sheering demonstration...

We proceeded to Taupo and stopped by at Huka Falls.

(From left, Masayuki, Angie, Me & Sam)

Huka falls water is really blue and it's really beautiful.

In Taupo, we checked-in to Kiwi Park and it costs us NZD128 per night.

Another cost saving meal. :)

Well basically Taupo is a place for adventures like Jet boating, Sky Diving, Bungee, River Cruise, Scenic flight... etc. As we are not quite keen in doing this in Taupo, hence we only walked around Lake Taupo and a spring nearby.

The spring water is amazingly crystal clear... it's so beautiful..

We stopped by at the Taupo-Bungee.

I will do this in Queenstown. Save the best for later. :)

It was a short 2 days trip before Masa drove us to the Whakapapa Village to ski. Sam went hitch hiking back to his own farm. The journey was a bit quiet and awkward sometimes because Masa doesn't speak good english and we have some difficulties expressing thoughts & communicating at times. But he was really kind to drove us around and most of the time he just keep smiling and nodding. It was funny though. :)

Anyway, Masa did not join skiing with us because he did it too many times in Japan and was bored of it. So, I went with Angie the next day.

Next post on ski. :)

Woofing @ Farm

2009-08-19T15:04:00.019+12:00

2 days before I left for NZ, I got to know I guy from Alor Star who is currently woofing in NZ. He then introduced me to this farm that he worked for 3 weeks and said that the farm was really amazing. And so he recommended me to his host (Audrey) and luckily, the host is willing to take us in for 10 Days!!!

And so I went Woofing in her Farm with no hassle of searching. The whole idea was to experience some country & farm life. WWoof in another word is Willing Worker on Organic Farm. If you would like to know more about woofing, you can try searching WWOOF and HelpXchange which provides lots of information on host & woofers to work in organic farms all around the world. But you need to pay for the membership. I was lucky. Ha ha.

The farm is located up north of Auckland. About an hour drive. In a small town called Matakana (near Warkworth). Audrey is a lecturer at the auckland university in the city so we tagged along to go to the farm with her when she was in the city.

Here are some pictures of the Caretaker Farm.

My room. Sharing with Angie.

There is something that haunt me since the day I went there is the using of COMPOST TOILET..... OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!

So this is how it works, you pee or shit inside this toilet bowl (which is a big bucket underneath) and then you put in the woodchips after your business. You can also throw toilet papers inside though. And so when the whole bucket is fulled with shit.... it will be taken to somewhere to let it become a COMPOST.

It is so FREAKING SMELLY and imagine everyone's shit is piling up.... OH MY GOD!!! I avoided drinking much so I don't have to go in this stinking place!!!

Anyway they also have normal toilet but it is in the family house. Not so good to disturb other people though. :(

The shower room.

We can use whatever or cook whatever we want in this kitchen.

The farm also have a big range of garden & forest over the hill.

The BBQ place.

Our job includes weeding and gardening sometimes.... After working with the plants for a few days, I realized, I freaking HATE GARDENING!!!! Because there are so many earthworms when you digged out the roots... OMG!!!! Horrible!!!

Sometimes we need to carry heavy sacks of Compost & Mulch & Woods up & down the hill.... Freaking HEAVY!!!!

Audrey has a beautiful garden....

Inside the Woofer House where every Woofer hanged out. There is a French girl, French guy, Hong Kong Guy, 1 Japanese Girl & Us at that time.

The entrance of the Farm. It's kinda Messy though.

Hazard Everywhere!!! Haha.

He is a very romantic French Guy. He taught us some French and was really FUN. Most of the time he is there to entertain us with his French Ascent. But this guy is freakingly young!!!. He is only FREAKING 16 YEARS OLD!!!! OMG!!!! He flew 24 hours from France with 2 transits. Wtf... I don't even know what on earth is going on when I was 16.

Inside the woofer house. It's freaking messy sometimes..

The oversize Clothes & Boots are provided by the host to work. How thoughtful. =)

One of our Main Task is to Walk to Dogs TWICE everyday at 8am & 4pm.

This is FRODO. The Big Black DOG. Freaking STRONG!!! I can't get hold of him.

This is Duchess. The Dog I usually Walk with.

But I think, almost everytime, The dog walks me..... because the freaking dog ran like mad and I have to run to keep up but sometimes I can't and I almost fell. *(@$@()%*@)(mailto:*@)*@() But it's good for Exercise.

Sometimes we walked up the hill.... I love this scenery... It is beautiful when the wind blows...

I have to pick up her SHIT.

My 2nd Main Task is to FEED THE CHICKEN also TWICE a day after walking the dogs.

So here is how it is done.

1) Dorothy (Audrey's mum) will cook the scrap (left over food) in the pot everyday.

2) Then I need to squeeze and twist it (I don't know the word lah) until it become smaller pieces.

3) Then you add 6 bowl of Bran & 1 bowl of Wheats.

4) Then you stir & mix it.

5) Then it's ready to Roll.

6) Then have to collect eggs every evening.

7) Also have to feed to Turkeys & Ducks.

FUN.

Working Indoor when it's raining...

Audrey also has a shop in Warkworth. I went there to be the shopkeeper twice. Audrey has great trust in people. She left me there alone on my first day. Wow.

On my off day, Audrey is so kind to offer me her spare car to drive around. There are several beaches around Matakana which is really nice.

Though her Mitsubishi is really OLD & Dirty... But I am really really glad that she offered us the car.

I especially love this beach. It's called Omaha Beach.

There are many farms along the road with cows and sheeps. We stopped by and take picture. Hehe.

My biggest peeve when I was in the farm was the Dirty Dishes that was left over by other woofers. It is really annoying & disgusting when they never cleaned up after using and left it there forever and I HAVE To do it MANY TIMES because I need to use the dishes. Sometimes the Butter or Cheese or Bread or whatever are not kept properly after they eat. Everything is just SOOOO messy... ARGHHHHH....

Anyway, This Caretaker Farm has given me a lot of exposure to permaculture & the organic farm. I really wanna thank my host - Audrey & Dorothy for providing such great hospitality and great trust in us.

We went to see Glowworms in the middle of the woods one night. It was really really really Beautiful where you are surrounded by a glimpse of lights in the total darkness. I can't show any picture as the camera could not focus.

And lastly this is our farewell party at the campfire.

After 10 days surviving in the farm, I have gained too much that I could ever imagined. I have to grab the dirtiest compost (with shit & worms) ever as a mulch for the plants. I have to clean chicken & dog poos.... I have to stay & mix with other foreigners (French, Japanese, Kiwi & Hong Kie) and it was a truly remarkable cultural exchange experience. Audrey has shared a lot of her own traveling experience & philosophy of life. It makes me think more about what life has to offer. Though there was once I made a mistake, I cut her plant, she was so pissed off and yell at me... oops. But then she was okay the next day. :P

I seriously think that I will not have gained this experience if I did not make an initiative to travel here & know new friends. All this came along with a flow and I was really really lucky to made it there.

Okay now I have been uploading pics in the blog for 4 hours. Freaking expensive in the cyber cafe.

I'm heading south starting tomorrow. To Rotorua, Taupo, and maybe go Skiing. Will be on the road for few days... =)

Heard that the h1N1 is getting worse back home, take care my friend. =)

My First week in Kiwiland...

2009-08-07T22:17:00.013+12:00

So, After a long week... Or I thought it was... I finally compiled some pictures and took the thumb drive to the cyber cafe (1 hour NZD1.50) cause the internet in the library sucks big time.

Well here's a small recap of my journey this week...

Flying off on a saturday night... with my mum teary eyes... =( Sob Sob...

The journey took 9 hours and 20 minutes...

Upon arrival, everything was okay. I went thru the immigration & customs smoothly. But my partner - Angie had a slight delayed on her immigration stamp as their record is not updated or something... so we waited like 45 minutes to get her passport stamped. I've arranged a taiwanese guy to pick us up at the airport earlier and I wasn't able to contact him cause my bloody hp short of credit. So, he actually went home after waiting for a while and when I finally got a chance to buy a local VODAFONE sim card and called him, he made a U TURN back to get us. How embarassing... =p

Anyway... He is really nice & helpful.

So, we checked into this Hostel in the city center.

We stayed in a 4 Bed Female Dormitory... a night here cost around NZD25 per person.

This is BEFORE...

And this is AFTER... =P

The Hostel is really convenient, fully furnished with equiped facilities...

And in here it's Safe to drink TAP WATER, so everyone just drink TAP WATER without filter..

The locker room...

Laundry place...

Lift...

Very clean toilets with tissue papers & hot shower... SUPERB!!!

Kitchen with all utensils...

And I am really glad I have a primary school friend who is currently staying in Auckland. We met up and she & her bf is so nice to bring us around and host us our 1st Dinner... It was a real blessing considering the bloody weather that made us feel so miserable....

We had Korean Hot Pot... it was so delicious!!! (in this weather, definitely)

Well, other days... we just cook instant noodles at the kitchen as the food out there is really expensive. It costs at least NZD8 for a meal (that is only the Food Court price, not including restaurants) So, a packet of maggi mee costs around NZD0.80 at the groceries store.

Actually I think I am quite lucky because I managed to contact some people by the last few days of departure. And I have found some connection before I landed here. So it is quite easy for me to seek help or to plan something. Otherwise, it could be a hassle here because there is no free wifi in the city... and it's gonna be really boring without any plans.

I found someone who recommended a host to me who is willing to let me & Angie work in her farm this Sunday. So I will be away to a place called Warkworth doing some farm job for around 10 days. So there wont be any internet connection. I am glad I found something to look forward to and more traveling plans after that. Though this is called WOOFING ( which is you work to trade for free food & accommodation, no pay) But it should be a very interesting experience. =)

So this week, we just wander around in auckland... basically the city is quite small... and they have many mountains... I had opened a bank account, applied my IRD (Tax thingy)... and now waiting to go the farm on sunday.

So here are some pictures here & there...

Well that's about it I guess...

So far so gooooooood... Well I am just disappointed about myself cause I didn't really take the effort to talk to strangers in my hostel... (SHY SHY) But I hope I will overcome this SOON.

I will update about my farm work 10 days later.... Take care my friend!

ANIMAL POST COMING UP.... hehehe...

No Free Wifi

2009-08-06T16:39:00.002+12:00

Sorry no pictures YET cause basically there is no free wifi in auckland city. Not in starbucks Not in McDonalds. =(

And since I am using the library free internet via their PC, it's quite annoying to upload pics from here as I can only book slot to use for an hour ONLY.

Well, I will still be hanging around auckland till Sunday. So will update more when I have compile my pictures by then.

Miss ya. Cheers.

Kia Ora!

2009-08-04T16:51:00.002+12:00

Hello folks.

Touched down updates in Kiwi land.

Weather is cold around 7 - 13 degrees and yes I am FREEZINGGGG.

I am staying right in the city center and the YHA hostel is amazingly clean & convenient. Superb!

I have met some friends whom I have contacted earlier. Everyone is friendly and helpful. =)

I am currently in cyber cafe so can't post pictures. I will try to bring my laptop to the library tomorrow or next few days to get free wifi.

I haven't find a job cause I am going woofing in a farm next week.

Most importantly - I am safe and sound.

Will update more later ya. Miss ya!!!!!!!!!

1 More Day...

2009-07-31T04:23:00.010+12:00

Oh my...

Time flies... 1 more Day and I am FLYINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG....

After being soo comfortable at home for about 3 weeks... Argh... I hate the packing packing packing so much... it's like forever never ending... I have been so annoyed by clearing my mountain of stuffs from SG and now I am soooo annoyed cause my luggage can't fit the stuffs I wanna bring to NZ! Shit!

Well of course, Why Not bring a Bigger one??? Well the hassle to move around is even more annoying later so I'll just stick to this. 1 Winter Jacket & 1 Winter pants has already occupied 3/4 of my bag!!! So the rest I can only squeeze in bit by bit. Argh...

I have been busy doing more research lately... browse into all kinds of website try to get to know more people over there... well some are really really nice & friendly and I look forward to meeting them soon. =) (I have successfully asked a Kiwi to treat me Lamb Shank in Auckland on Monday... Wahahaha. )

Well Uhm... what is my feeling now....

I am really excited... but feel a bit lazy to move. Haha mostly because I have been wandering around doing nothing... Watching Astro and DVDs... Meeting friends and go shopping... completely stress free and good life... And I have total freedom of using my washing machine, TV, radio, kitchen or whatever... Just can't believe how pathetic I was back in SG when I was stucked in the freaking jail room for almost 10 months...

Anyway...
I am gonna miss watching 'The Biggest Loser' from the Hallmark Channel with my mom during dinner time...
I am gonna miss my daily MSN buddies ( you know who you are)...
I am gonna miss the nice hot & spicy food here.... ( I hate BREAD & PASTRIES!!! T_T)
I am gonna miss my hamsters... (though they're not user friendly)
I am gonna miss my friends... (gossip & kaypoh-ing & complaining)
I am gonna miss the stupid HOT SUN... (I might freeze to death there)
I am gonna miss My Mummy's nagging... (her baby girl is flying so far for the first time :P)

Argh... so many things to miss I can't even remember what to list down now...

Well this it is.... a long planned journey AWAY FROM HOME I have been loooking forward to. (Try not to be envious when you hate your job okay?) I will try to be as humble as I can when I post pictures in Facebook... not trying to make you feel bad about your life (wahahahaha) ;P

Okay more last minute things to be check... Till then...

Woo Hoo...

Random post

2009-07-29T05:08:00.003+12:00

Recently I am so busy preparing my check list things... did some shopping and got broke. I am still pondering whether to buy the super warm long john from Winter Time or Universal Traveller which costs more than a hundred bucks. I have 2 sets of those from Bangkok but not sure if they work warm enough. Argh.

Anyway... Tonight I Drove to Le Meredien KL to meet up with Glory and Liz (my ex colleagues from Sg). So glad to see them again before I fly... So, as a 'host' I tried to show them the best of local, they wanted to try some local food. Sorry to say that I am a BAD HOST cause I don't drive to KL city... so instead of heading KL, I brought them to PJ Jalan 222 to try the Hokkien Mee. They loved it though... (I actually took some wrong turns and took them on a joy ride for a while.. oops) Then I brought them to Sunway Pyramid (so called nice mall lah...)

After parking, My hp rang and my mum called. She sounds panicked! And you know what? She said she pumped Diesel into her car and now she is getting someone to fix her car and she's stucked at the petrol station and is lacking cash to pay the foreman. I was like: -_____-"

Why did she pump DIESEL at the first place???? -_____-" and so I dropped off Glory & Liz at the mall and I fled to the petrol station. When I reached, everything was done. Eventually there's a foreman who passed by and he offered to fix the car. My mum told me he eventually took out the engine and pour the diesel away or something like that... not sure what is happening... Anyway he charged us RM150 for that... and then he said don't worry the car is fine now.... and so, my mum finally got her car to move again.... PHEWWWWWW.....

What happened if no one is around... Haihhh.. that is the ultimate question I hate to answer....
Who's gonna help my mom then??? I just prayed hard that everything will run smoothly when I am away later.... (in 4 days time I will be gone!!!)

So anyway when she's done with her car, I rushed back to pick Ann & Liz back to the hotel. Someone recommended them the Zeta Bar at the Hilton (someone said it's a MUST GO PLACE in KL)... and so we went...

Well the bar ambience is nice... and then they have a live band (not bad lah)... But the crowd is mostly aged 30 and above I think... I saw many old, fat uncles sitting around. Some with sluts.... Annoying D.O.M.... There was this lady who dances so sluttishly I think she needs sex badly tonight.... -____-"
Well anyway, the drinks are nice though.. I had a Long Island... Liz got a BIG Hoegarden and Glory as usual got her Margarita... it's not cheap though, the 3 drinks came to a total of RM133. ( of course everything charge to company, ha ha ha)

So sad it reminds me of the good old times we hung out together... sob sob...

Anyway, party is over and so I came home... Did another drama farewell with Glory again.... Hug Hug and HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGssss.... =)

It was a night of surprises.... Hmm..

-the end-

Packing Check List

2009-07-26T16:19:00.002+12:00

I HATE PACKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The below check list is extracted from Gapyear.com

Day
Backpack
Day pack

First Aid
Medical kit
Sterile kit
Dental kit

Suggested additions to medical kit:
Sachets of re-hydrate
Wound closure strips
Paracetemol
Antibiotic cream
Anti-diarrhoea medicine
Anti-fungal foot powder
Motion sickness medication
Throat lozenges
Vitamins
Sharp ended tweezers
Medic Alert identification
Pointed scissors
Water purification tablets
Thermometer

Night
Sleeping bag
Sleeping sheet

Equipment
iPod / MP3 / CD Player
Camera (digital)
Film (if non digital)
Mobile phone
Charging units
Travel adapter

Security
Personal alarm
Money belt
Combination padlocks
Wrapsafe

Money / Finances
Pre-paid card (BackpackerMoney)
Travellers Cheques

Washbag
Washbag (with hook)
Travel towel
Tooth brush guard
Universal sink plug
Peg free clothes line
Travel wash (for clothes)
Travel toothbrush
Toothpaste
Suncream (once a day)
Shampoo
(Conditioner)
Shaving stuff
Sewing Kit
Ear plugs
Contraception
Tissues (big box)
Lip balm
Safety pins
Flannel
Female sanitary
Brush or comb
Deodorant
Condoms
Toilet paper
Wet wipes
Dental floss
Moisturiser
Nail clippers

Bite avoidance
*Mosquito net
Bite clicker
DEET repellent
Electronic repellent

Useful gadgets
Penknife
Small Maglite torch
LED
Head torch
Spare batteries
Knife/fork/spoon set
Eye shade
Inflatable neck pillow
Compass

Clothes
Lightweight long sleeved shirt (hemp?)
Travel trousers
Moisture management shirt
Sun hat / cap
Travel sandals
Trekking shoes
Mac-in-a-sac
Poncho
Underwear
Shorts
Belt
T Shirts
Swimming 'things'
Cotton shirts
Jeans
Long sleeved T Shirts
Sweater
Sarong

Female…
Going out stuff
Smart work clothes
Smart shoes / sandals
Sarong / wrap

Cold…
Woolly hat
Scarf and gloves
Thermal underwear (+ long johns – superb!)

Paperwork
Books
Phrasebook
Address book
Telephone card
Job reference letter
Family / home life photos
Diary (fill in birthdays / and important dates)

Other useful items
Re-sealable bags
Large black bin bag
A ball of string
Balloons + pens (for kids you meet)

General
Make a list of the following and photocopies of each to your parents and a trusted mate. Ask them to put them in a safe place in case you need to contact them. Also take a set with you.
Drivers licence
Embassy Addresses
Serial number of tickets
International Drivers Licence
Glasses/contact lens prescription
Passport number and date issued
Serial numbers of travellers cheques
Serial numbers on valuables e.g. cameras
Youth Hostel card / other membership
All insurance details & emergency contacts
Credit card numbers
(Do not take copies with you!)
Emergency numbers to contact
(Do take copies with you)
Emergency Numbers
'Car Breakdown Club' card

Essentials
Passport
Flight tickets
Bus / coach tickets / passes
Visas
Immunisation record
Travel Insurance
Diary
Address Book
All emergency numbers
Passport photos (min of six)
Pens
Glasses/contact lenses (+ spares?)
Prescriptions
Medications
Photocopies of documents
Sunglasses
Identity cards (student + other)
Discount cards (WorldTravelCard.com)

Headache lah.... @_@

My Beach Vacation @ Krabi

2009-07-20T21:49:00.016+12:00

It is like a dream... I am home and suddenly I am in paradise, and back to this hectic place again.

a 3 days 2 nights beach vacation, I have been longed for since I started work after graduation was really a breathtaking one.

For only a weekend, it was so hard to find another traveling partner... even when the airfare is cheap (RM300). Everyone seems to have their own commitments, and so it ended up only Me & Clair on board...

Our itinerary was simple.... KL - Krabi. That's all. There is no plan at all (Okay we are lazy people). We just thought of engaging local agents on some local tours and that's it.

I booked and prepaid the hotel months ago when I bought my tickets. The room is really nice. It is located near Ao Nang beach. It cost around THB1270 per night.

But sad to say, we only left our luggages in the hotel on the first night as we went to another island called Railay Beach which is 15 mins boat ride from Ao Nang. I went there because my friend - Oli whom I met in Shanghai last time was in Railey for a backpacking trip and he said that's the most happening and fun place in Krabi. But the problem is once you get into the island, there's no night boat out from there. (unless you pay like a freaking lot of money) So we are basically stucked in the island for a night.

So we went to the jetty to get a long tail boat ride from Ao Nang to Railey... After negotiation, the boatmen agreed to take 3 of us ( a cute hunk and us) at the cost of THB600 per boat.

There was something least expected happened during the ride...

When the boatman was trying to start his boat's engine, the battery spewed smokes and burst into sparks, I smelled burnt gas instantly.... for a moment I thought it is going to explode... but then the boatman never gave up, he continued trying to start his engine by kicking his battery... and with a few more sparks the engine is forced to run!!! But I was so scared that it might explode half way and we have to jump into the sea. Luckily there's this really good looking Hunk (his name is Puerto and he is from Poland) who was on the same boat, he seems really calm about it and we just have to get over it. Neither would we expect, the waves was so BIG after the rain and the boat is swinging so hard for a moment we thought we will die either 1) the boat capsize or 2) the battery exploded... (Touch wood).

The waves keep splashing into our face & body and my clothes are soaking wet and my whole body is so salty... and THANK GOD we arrived SAFELY at Railey Beach!!! I am so relieved.... Basically I have been to many boat rides and none of it is soooo exciting like this. I am not being paranoid or anything but imagine if you see something spewing smoke, it is not a good sign isnt it?

Railey beach is a very happening backpacking place with lots of fun activities. Most people there are basically westerners and I hardly even see a single asian dude ( so I had lots of attention by nature)wahahaha.

There are Rock Climbing, Hiking, Diving, Snorkeling, Canoeing, Kayaking, and lots more local activities to do... However, my cute little partner - Miss Clairessa has sprained her ankle last month and was told not to do any extreme activities. So we did neither of it.

We just sit back and relaxed... Eat, drink, chilled out, swim, and sunbathed on the lovely island.

This is Oli... :)

Nice Banana + Chocolate Pancake. :)

Chang on ICE ( local drinking way)

Muslee (Yoghurt + cereals)

We had a nice time in Railey... Oli is so friendly, he said hi to everyone on the island... that's why he knows hell lot of cheap and good places there. :)
I felt quite obliged at times to talk to strangers but it is actually a very good way to make friends. I should be more Outspoken next time. Hmm.

The going back part is another annoying thing where we need to negotiate and wait for the right numbers of people to board...

The sea is not as rough as how it was when we came... So glad...

Back in Ao Nang, we hired a tuk tuk to town... which cost THB700 (to and fro and anywhere)

The driver in pink shirt ( he has a really nice smile) and he brought us around to look see look see (though there is basically nothing in town) and also introduced us the fire show bar!

I offered him and his friend a coke and they joined us at the bar. He is so nice he offered a cheap ride to the airport (he said: up to us) Wahahaha... so good right?

Before leaving I must utilised this nice pool and get some additional tanned...

To conclude the trip, the journey had brought me a lot closer to my ex-roommate - Ms Clairessa (which I had enough of her for 2 years). It makes me wanna punch her EVEN MORE on her face.... (I am serious) -_____-" ... (remember the 2 option, Ms Clair?) Hehe. She is Funnnn... :)

Well the only annoying part about the trip is that you have to keep on negotiate with locals to get around (they just like to rip you off in anything). Anyway... this is a really remarkable holiday... I look forward to another beach vacation next year.... Woo hoo! ^0^

Koh Samui? Maybe?

Anyone???

the Answers Revealed...

2009-07-14T02:40:00.010+12:00

Okay Okay, to avoid being criticised as “滥神秘“ anymore... I have decided to reveal my upcoming plan in a very comprehensive 5W and 1H way.

1)WHAT is your mysterious Plan?

I am heading down south to New Zealand on a 6 Months Working Holiday Visa! ^0^

2) HOW did you apply?

It is easy. Just go to the immigration website at http://www.immigration.govt.nz/ and search for the Malaysia Working Holiday Scheme. You can submit your form manually or online. As for me, I did everything online which is very convenient for me. You just need to register an account, fill up the form and attached the relevant documents (bank statement of some what reasonable amount), pay the application fee via credit card, It should be around NZD120 (Sorry I forgot the exact amount) and submit the form online. You will be notified once your status is approved via your registered account.

(Extracted From the immigration Website)
To be eligible (For Malaysian Only)
You must:
- have a Malaysian passport that‘s valid for at least three months after your planned departure from New Zealand
- be at least 18 and not more than 30 years old
- not bring children with you
- hold a return ticket or sufficient funds to purchase such a ticket*
- have a minimum of NZ$2,250 available funds to meet your living costs while you’re here
- meet our health and character requirements
- be coming to New Zealand to holiday, with work being a secondary intention for your visit
- not have been approved a visa or permit under a Working Holiday Scheme before.
AND
- If you are already in New Zealand you also need to hold a valid temporary permit.
*You are required to hold sufficient funds for the duration of your visit and for the purchase of an outward ticket from New Zealand. Such evidence may be requested on arrival at the border.

For more info, you can browse on the website Questions & Answers section which they have a list of
answers that tailored your needs.

I applied online in October 2008 and got approved in January 2009. After approval, you must travel to NZ within 1 year or else your Visa will be forfeited and will not be eligible to apply anymore. There is a quota each year for this application hence you might need to wait longer once the quota is fulled.

3) WHY New Zealand?

Well, Of course you might be wondering, Why Not go UK instead? Okay first, I heard that the UK working holiday scheme is very complicated. I have seen the form and I gave up. You need to submit the form manually, need to have a sponsor/referree in UK, need to have very good bank records, need to have a lot of specific details written from your ancestor to yourself which is very annoying. And then you need to wait for a period of time, and to be Interviewed (not Once I reckon). Bla bla bla... yes But it is quite tempting as the visa valid for 1-2 years. Anyway... I have no patience for that and hence I have chosen NZ.

I think NZ is a very very beautiful country where the picture itself looks like a fairy land and of course I'm tempted by the long heard extreme sports (Woo Hoo!!!). I always wanted to do something different from the city life. Though fruit picking and farming is one of the main activity there, I think it is pretty interesting for a first timer. I am soooooooo looking forward to that. Besides, I am still YOUNG! Why not Doing this NOW when I have no commitments. Just do it before I get old and regret forever.

Good news is Australia has just launched this working holiday scheme for Malaysian starting this year. If you have interest, you can google and see. At that point of time, I have got this visa approved so I did not really read about it.

4) WHICH part of NZ are you going?

I will be traveling from North Island to South Island. Haven't decided on the itinerary yet. But will arrived in Auckland and then keep on moving.

5) WHERE are you going to stay?

There is a wide range of Backpacker Hostels throughout the country which is cheap and affordable. You can browse more at Budget Backpacker Hostel (BBH) and Youth Hostel Association(YHA). Everything is listed in details.

6) WHO are you going with?

I am going with a high school best friend (You will see her face when I post pictures there later). We have plan this together for quite some time, Save money, Buy air ticket, quit our job... and now the final countdown. :)

Okay Finally done with being mysterious all this while. Well the reason for not announcing earlier is because I wasn't settling down yet and I have hell lot of stuffs to take care of and I am too tired to take questions. Especially when it involves moving out from another country. There are room rentals, phone bills, change of address, a lot of miscellaneous errand here and there. And also my hectic work is driving me nuts with all the non-stop follow ups.

Saving money to do this is not an easy one... the flight ticket itself has cost me almost RM4ooo. And I also need to have a sufficient capital to start my journey with. I am lucky cause Singapore Dollars is actually around 8 cents higher than New Zealand Dollars. Which makes my life easier cause the cost is quite similar. But for Ringgit, the exchange rate is still closing to NZD1 = RM2.35 or something like that. So it takes more time for my traveling partner to save.

Now that I have time to finally sit back at home and flip through my NZ Travel Guide. l wanna express my gratitude my teammates & colleagues that gave me 2 guide books individually as a farewell present. I was really surprised and really happy to received it as I was hesitating to get one cause it is quite pricey.

And now counting down the days...

I am flying off on 1st of August... Will be coming back in January (if ever I want to come back again :p)

If you ask me what is my plan after that? Well, most probably back to Singapore to earn the keep-on-rising SINGAPORE DOLLARS... and then Go Travel AGAIN!!! :)

Good Plan? Hee...

*Updates*
p/s: Okay EK, If i ever get a Kiwi, I wont be back so soon lah... hahahaha.

Next Destination...

2009-07-11T01:54:00.003+12:00

3 More Weeks!!!

and I will be starting my first step... ;)

New Template?

2009-07-10T04:26:00.001+12:00

Hey guys, what do you think about this blog template?

I am kinda bored with the pink. Does White looks good?

Let me know your thoughts! Muacksss

Finally...

2009-07-08T01:54:00.008+12:00

It has been a week of Drama... with farewell dinner everyday... with a lot of goodbyes and well wishes while everyone was busy with the forever hectic event schedule.

Nevertheless, My teammates did a small celebration for me... I got a 'Poster' made by a lovely colleague!

This was where I sat for the past one and a half year... The LCD screen only came after 6 months there... (the old ass monitor is a real torture)

Well, as the saying goes, people will treasure you more when you are gone... cause they always took you for granted when you are there...

I have put my soul into the company, and tried my best in everything that has been assigned to me. I had to admit, I actually Love My Job! It is really hard to find a job that you actually love. I really couldn't imagine doing something that you don't really like and you have to drag your feet to the office every morning . I know it happens everywhere out there and I can just say that, I'm very lucky to have this.

Giving up my job, couldn't be that easy... So much things to consider, so much to plan, so much pain to bear. A lot of give and a little take... Dramas and politics... sucking system sucking people... It has always been a routine. A year after another... I kinda think it is enough. I have learnt what I should and it is time to move on to a broader horizon. And of course, no grass is greener on the other side, I am not hopping to another job at the moment... Just planning to take a break and starting an adventure.

I know I will surely miss the hectic working schedule when I am too free and doing nothing everyday. I know I will miss sitting in front of this screen, looking at it for half of the day....

and I know I will miss my best colleague friend - Glory Ann... where we frequently hanged out at my favourite dinner spot after late night work... Sting Ray, Fried egg with steam rice and a can of Green Tea.

I know I will miss the luxury hotels and the traveling... though it was not as fun as it seems to be. But, anyway, who wouldn't love an All-expenses-paid trip anyway... Though it could be only sneaking out for a few hours, it meant a lot to get to a foreign place! The experience is remarkable.

And Now, I am leaving for good... For a more exciting road ahead... (will update in next blog)

Last but not least... I got something really sweet from my teammates...

I was really touched....

Plan A

2009-07-04T15:48:00.004+12:00

Sorry didn't manage to update my blog. Plan A in progress.

Have been busy with farewell lunches, dinners, outings... Also busy with Job hand over, closing files, clearing stuffs...

Now busy packing packing packing (though haven't start yet) and another farewell outing this weekend...

I have so much to tell about my last week though. Give me few more days... when I am back to KL... At that time I should be able to finally sit down and blog about it.

Cheerio.

Another episod of Bangkok...

2009-06-26T14:15:00.008+12:00

I went on a bonus trip to Bangkok... The reason I said it was a bonus is because, it is a last minute swap schedule... And it is a small training course, which basically there is nothing to do except registration.

I Stayed in this same hotel - Plaza Athenee, which they put me in the Royal Orchid Room with Club Lounge benefits this time... Free flow of Internet usage and Drinks at the Club Lounge throughout the day...

Lying on the super comfy bed while watching on a 42 inch plasma TV and 30+ Channels... Though 20 of the news channel are talking about IRAN...

The feeling of course is absolutely great! Like a QUEEN....

2 hours upon arrival, After checking in and settled some work stuffs... I fled to Platinum Mall...

In just 2 hours time.... I'm officially BROKE and ran out of Thai Baht.... had to withdraw money from my SG ATM... which costs me some bank charges... how stupid I am... (should have bring more baht, how could I underestimate my shopping talent) -____-"
WARNING: PLEASE BRING MORE BAHT TO PLATINUM MALL AS THEY DO NOT ACCEPT CREDIT CARD.

Anyway... I went for a Thai Massage in the mall (Basement Level), a good place to rest after shopping... and went back to the hotel on the first day. I asked my trainer out for dinner and we dined in a restaurant nearby the hotel... It was absolutely embarassing because he has to pay the bill with his AMEX as I did not have enough money or any credit card to take it although I was the one asking him out. -____- S.H.U.C.K.S. (but he is a Brits so should be cheap for him lah hor...)

And Monday after work, I met up with Alex from Couchsurfing. He is amazingly down-to-earth and he knows the local way freakingly well.

I never know that there are still boat rides existing as a commuter for the public... I always thought it is only for the tourist...

This is the Canal... Where it is a good way to travel to skip the hectic traffic uptown...

The ride is only 8 BAHT, they collect money after you board it...

We alight at the last stop where it is near Khao San Road...

and I am finally there!

This place is awesome! It is like a mixture of everything. Funky, Low Class, Cheap goods, Pirated Stuffs, Fake IDs, Bars, Restaurant, Ang Mos, Backpackers, Food, Very happening road...

I chilled out at a bar nearby with Alex, where there's good music and a cozy place to chat. He is a Biology Teacher at a local school and he is trying to make Maths & Science logically interesting to me.. But hey sorry, I am more like a not logical woman. Ha ha. It was great having him around or else I could be bored to death in the hotel.

Thanks Alex!

And Oh yeah, how often do you see an AngMo taking a bus and forced you to take it cause he hates the cab... :) It was Fun though...

And I am back to my super COMFY bed... which they made up my bed to a sleeping mode.. and it is just god damn enticing..

I had a really SWEET DREAM...

OMG....

2009-06-21T02:02:00.001+12:00

I cried like hell after watching...

You must watch Okay... On your speaker!!!

Jai Ho!

2009-06-19T00:50:00.008+12:00

3rd Business Trip to Mumbai....

What can I conclude...

This time round, I am not going to annoy you with wonderful and amazing pictures but I'm gonna show you some disturbing images of the places I went.

Before I start, I assumed many people do not know the exact location of Mumbai, hence I posted this route so that you can have a clear picture of what I am talking about.

Well as Most people Already know, It has always been a huge contrast between the Rich & the Slums... (If you have not heard about it, please watch Slumdogs Millionaire)

The hotel I stayed for instance, is the 5 star Hyatt hotel which is located near the airport. However, just across the street itself, is surrounded by many poor houses (I don't really know what to call them), or run down places.

There was a night where we went out for dinner and passby an alley... The whole alley was occupied by many families with kids where they actually stayed there. The Place was really horrible, as they Only have some cloths for the bed and some Pots to cook. They actually Cooked with small fireplace on the street ( probably curry, I don't know). and the kids are naked, and they walked around without slippers or shoes... it's totally unbelievable that in this century there are people who lived like this in the FINANCIAL HUB of INDIA. And I even saw people using the water in the potholes to bath!!! Can you imagine that???

Moving to Transportation... And this is the so called development... building MRT on the main road which makes the already sucky traffic even more sucker....

Talking about remittance... I really doubt the security though...

Talking about Street Shopping...

Well, Help yourself....

And there isn't a single road which is nicely TARRED in the city...

Which is totally crapped!

The Only Good thing which I can talk about is the Tandoori Chicken meal I had in a decent restaurant... and of course with bottle waters.

Anyway.... The reasons I wasn't really pleasant with this journey firstly is because of the Blady Airport!!! Upon Arrival the stupid swine flu scanning queue is like freaking annoying already... The 'S' queue, from the top level to the bottom level, it's just really annoying... Just because you need to pass the form to them and then be questioned by the officer: Do you have Fever? Of course, damn it, everyone will Say NO wat.... Then get stamped so you can proceed to customs...

Well I tried to get over it anyway, but Upon Departure the BLADY CUSTOMS is MORE MORE MORE SUCKENING.... First you get stucked in a queue OUTSIDE the airport just to get into the hall... and then you get stucked for the Luggages Security Scan... and then you get stucked for Immigration... And then you get stucked for the guy who check your boarding pass after immigration... And then you get stucked at the Hand Luggage Security Scan..... And the you FINALLY can proceed to the boarding gate... Then you get stucked on the queue to the plane... and then you get stucked with them tearing your boarding pass.... then you get stucked with another guy checking your boarding pass... WTH??? Do they need to check so many blady times!!! And then I am carrying the stupid laptop which is so damn blady heavy for Each Stupid Queue they have... and then guess what? At the end of all the stupid scan I realized my Water Bottle is still inside my Handbag and it's not even Confiscated... and I can board the plane with it... Then what the hell are you scanning???

Okay, after complaining about the stupid airport, the Second Damn thing I am really pissed off is because MY MONEY WAS STOLEN!!!!

And the freaking annoying part is, I don't know when, where, how was it gone! The whole time I had the money (which is to pay supplier) with me in an envelope in my bag and it was in my ROOM!!! Well there are a couple of hours where I left it in the bag before putting into the Safe Box. And then when I'm about to pay my supplier I realized the money was only left half the amount!! I don't know where it went and I don't really think I misplace it cause I didn't even touch it! So, Obviously it has been Stolen... From who, I don't know... The missing amount is Rs3000, which sums up to SGD100 or RM240!!!!!! GOD DAMN IT.... It's not a huge amount or neither it's not a SMALL one OK!!! Now I have to PAY THE DAMN MONEY from my own Pocket just because it was gone Mysteriously!!!

BLADY HELL...

I actually changed lots of small notes so that I can give it to the poor or tip some staffs... but after noticing the lost money I am so freaking pissed off so I am so NOT paying anyone...

Yeah, I think this is a very negative blog about traveling but anyway, India still has their hidden gems... so maybe it's just ME who is the grumpy POT and the UNLUCKY rich ass (company pay my ass)...

But the bonus is, I am assigned to go to Bangkok this Sunday because my colleague is unable to travel!!! Woo Hoo... Maybe I shouldn't be so happy because her father was critically ill.... I hope he gets well soon....

Bangkok .... A city where you never get bored...

Better than Jai Ho!

This is my Now....

2009-06-13T01:16:00.005+12:00

I finally did it...

The word that I have been swearing to do for a very long time.

It has been monthsss since I thought about it...

and I finally gave her the letter at 4.50pm today...

I remembered the feeling.... It was exactly the same when I came down to sign the offer letter 18 months ago...

The nostalgic fear of uncertainty is all coming back to me again...

I remembered that there were thousand of questions in my mind when I first step my foot here... I took a 8 hours midnight bus and reached here around 7am.... the appointment was 1030am... and I spent my time waiting for 3 hours at the McDonalds at CentrePoint.

and then the journey begun... I signed the letter... and started my singapore life then and there....

Today...

I am nervous...

Not because I will regret... But... It is just that, every good relationship that I have built with the people here has come to an end... and I feel bad about it... probably because I know I can't grow with the team anymore...

I know I will missed them...

Especially my best colleague friend - Glory Ann.... who is my MRT-mate, Lunch & Dinner- mate, Team-mate, Weekend-mate, No Life-mate, Single-mate, Girls Night-mate...

argh... where can I find someone like her elsewhere....

I am serving my last 2 weeks now... starting with a Bollywood trip on Sunday...

to her... Thank you for the opportunities given all this while.

This is my Now....

p/s: Please Don't ask me about vacancy, Don't ask me about my plans. Give me some time. I will tell you when I'm ready.

Thanks guys...

the day I longed for....

2009-06-11T03:17:00.001+12:00

2 more days...

So excited yet so fear.....

Hmmmm.....

Weekend and Me and virtual Picky.

2009-06-08T03:03:00.004+12:00

Picky was with me during the weekend.

Not physically but virtually.

We are msn-ing for almost whole day & night. She asked me: what do I do online? I can't possibly survive for 8 hours just browsing website. Indeed it was a good question. I read blogs, read some online news, update my facebook... browse some crap... and I have nothing to do anymore.

So on Saturday, I went for a swim. This time only 16 laps as I am too exhausted and I came back and took a nap. And I woke up and msn-ing with Picky again. And I was so prepared to go to club that night with my best colleague buddy. But the plan was scrapped cause someone throw me a plane. So we went for dinner instead and I insisted to go to Dempsey Road.

It was a really nice place with rows of restaurants and some wine house and bars. Perfectly designed for the rich & affordable expats and locals. But for us, well, once in a blue moon is good enough, the place is not really wallet friendly.

We had dinner at DOME and later went to OOSH. It is a perfect hide out from the buzz of the city. I can feel peace and serenity and it feels really comfortable sipping the Martini under the bright moonlight, with some shadow of the trees shaking when the wind blows, while being carried further with the soft music they are playing... I enjoyed the company but I feel extremely sad cause this could be our last date out together...

then I woke up and it is Sunday...

My laptop is not responsing like yesterday. It has gone from worse to worst. It couldn't even load until the desktop, it just went completely black out and hanged. I really learnt my lesson. Ouch....

And so I have the msn-marathon with Picky again. And I was bored so I browse youtube for the Britain's Got Talent Finals. And I was so amazed by the show!!!

Well I was amazed by Susan Boyle earlier, but I was stunned to see Diversity... It's just a god damn good performance. Oh.... I should have notice earlier.... I didn't realize it was so good. And of course some crappy performance during the audition, which makes me laugh my head off.

and it was dinner time, and I met up with my penang exhousemate to dine at Botak Jones with me. I love the caesar salad so bloody much. YOU MUST TRY OKAY, IF YOU EAT IN BOTAK JONES...

and hey I am back on msn with Picky again.

and that's about how was my weekend with Picky...

Hey, just a note to you babe, Thanks for the company throughout the weekend. Appreciate it much =)

Let's welcome the hell day... :)

friday night crap

2009-06-06T03:26:00.004+12:00

It has been few days since I came back and settle down again. There are a lot of things wandering in my mind. Some words I really wanna shout it out loud but I can't. I am surpressing it until the very right time.

Few colleagues left the company. It's a total mixed reaction to me. But as usual, I bid them farewell with the usual 'Good luck, All the Best' line...

I am preparing for my next trip - Mumbai, Yes... AGAIN.... 3rd freaking time! With ultimate reluctance... and Yes this will be the Last...

It's Friday and I am not happy. I don't even have the mood to enjoy the weekend.

I am playing Mafia Wars on Facebook just to kill time as I don't have mood to work as well.

I am glad today my IT colleague has removed the spyware that hijacked my laptop 2 days ago. But still my laptop is acting weird and start up & restart is not working well as usual... TMD.

I have alot to say but just can't seems to find the right words out. and F*** it because this is my personal blog but I am imposing censorship on my own thoughts and plans. I can't even express myself here because I don't want to publicise it and I don't freaking want to privatise it as it is such a hassle to log in & out. duh...

It's just seems Weird...

I feel really weird about this...

Sigh.

I am back!

2009-06-03T01:55:00.003+12:00

I am back to SG...

With 10000 things to do...

I only have 2 hands...

a semi malfunction brain...

limited time a day...

War time again!!!

How tiring....

T___T

Okay....

2009-06-01T02:05:00.004+12:00

Things got better today...

I finally Confessed to my mum about my upcoming plans..... (she came back after the funeral yesterday)

Of Course, she is quite against the idea initially but I managed to talk her out of it... so she is cool now... =p

Then...

I bought 3 more Hammies back.... to fill the empty cage...

So... things are looking GOOD again!

Can't wait for 2 more months!!!

YIPPIE...

p/s: For those who know.. please keep cool about it... For those who don't... please wait and I will tell you about it soon. =p

WTH????

2009-05-30T14:20:00.003+12:00

I came back with excitement to have a good rest at home after a month long of shit and am so eager to catch up with my mum...

And when I reached home...

My mum was telling me there's this Uncle (I hardly know him) who passed away few days ago and she's rushing to his funeral in Bahau (Negeri Sembilan)...

Then we have an argument about me going with her... bla bla bla and then she said she'll go herself... Then I insisted to go with her... bla bla bla...

and today when I woke up at 6am she's GONE without me!!!! WTH!!!

Then my 2 CUTIE hamsters DIED yesterday before I reached home!!!

Is this a PUNISHMENT or what???

So why the hell I came back for???

Intense

2009-05-28T03:18:00.004+12:00

I've never felt such intensity before...

The stress is burning my soul...

even when the event is almost over...

I am still suffering from Post Event Stress Disorder...

I can't feel relieved... I can't feel the success...

I felt like bursting into tears and crying out loud...

But I am too puzzled and stoned to have any emotion on my face....

there are too many things stalking me endlessly...

This is a bit too much.... to get myself back into my own life....

the bottom line is: what the fark did I gain?

N.O.T.H.I.N.G. B.U.T. P.A.I.N.

give me a break!

2009-05-27T03:05:00.002+12:00

ARghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........

This week is driving me NUTS!!!!

Can't take it anymore.....

T_T

上海谈....

2009-05-23T23:57:00.023+12:00

This time round I'm lucky to still be able to travel for work to Shanghai despite the cost-cutting measure...

The route from Singapore - Shanghai...

Anyway... there are alot of surprises during the working days where it really annoyed me a lot.... Btw, it's more to internal matters and some jackass people... which I'm not going to elaborate further as it will totally spoiled my mood.

I'll talk about, how I sneaked out after work to explore the vibrant city instead...

Let's start with some introduction about the place I stayed.

This is Grand Hyatt Shanghai, located at the 54th floor - 88th floor of the Jin Mao Tower... Basically it's not because my company is so rich to provide us a 5 star room, but because we held our event over there, so they gave us a special rate for it.

View from my room - Hazy...

Amazing corridors from my room level - 72nd...

This is Jin Mao Tower (金茂大厦)

Jin Mao Tower also have it's own observation deck at 88th Floor, but I went to the tallest building next to it which is the Shanghai World Financial Center (上海环球金融中心) because I'm more into seeing the transparent glass on the deck.

This is the view from the 100th floor...

the vertigo feeling transaparent glass...

The toilet at 94th Floor...

The experience is totally remarkable... though the entrance fee is quite expensive - RMB150 compared to Jin Mao -RMB80.

I extended a night stay in another boutique hotel... which is so Lovely and Cheap! It even comes with Free Internet Access which I needed so badly for checking freaking emails... The location is good, facilities are good and total value for money!

The H HOTEL - HIGHLY RECOMMENDED

The lobby couch!

I meet up with Olivier from couchsurfing...

He is so nice to bring me around town!

And to this very local chinese foot massage in the neighbourhood area... :) Eveyone just sit there and talk to each other in 上海话... It was awesome!

Also went to food street with his colleague...

This place is so cool but they are demolishing it soon.... >_<

Chilling out at a pub.... with Oli trying to be a freak...
=p

It was fun having friendly people around...

One thing bad about the city is that a lot of contructions for more upcoming skyscrappers going on which makes the air really bad

We tried out the Well known-Long Heard impressive Maglev Train to the airport...

The last time I came was in Winter, didn't like it that much cause of the weather... but Summer in Shanghai... it's chilly at night and it is Awesome

If it's not the annoying work that screwed my day...

this journey could be the most splendid experience for me...

I wish to be back some other time....

Till then Shanghai...

the breeze gently wind pass me...

2009-05-19T02:58:00.003+12:00

If only I could pause the time...

I could have taken a couple of mins, just to enjoy the breeze...

It would have meant so much to take a deep breath and feel the fresh air...

However, My current schedule makes it uneasy for me...

It's unlikely to even stop thinking about work for a moment...

Can't enjoy anything in peace....

I left out all the best spark in life....

and yes... even catching an early flight tomorrow...

I knew... this aint a happy journey after all...

Breakthrough

2009-05-17T20:07:00.003+12:00

Today I am very happy with myself...

I swam 20 Laps With-Stop at the pool under the Hot Sun!
(though it's not non-stop, I think it's good enough lah..)

AND the feeling is GREAT! I feel so ALIVE!!!

This is my First Record of such consistent swim.... Hope to have more breakthrough next time.

Hee!

My New Babe!!!

2009-05-17T01:13:00.004+12:00

Hi Everyone,

Say Hello to my New Babe!!!

The First Panasonic Waterproof Camera!!!

Got a great deal at a fair in Takashimaya just now...

at S$619 + 10% for extended 5 years warranty.

Comes with:

2 x 8GB SDHC memory card

1 x mini tripod

1 x cleansing kit

1 x camera case

1 x lcd screen protector

Good Deal right? :)

My Absolute Obsession:

It is SHOCK & WATERPROOF with 28mm Wide Angle lens.

Comes with High Quality HD UnderWater Video recording ...

Hope to show some photo samples soon....

~WOO HOO~

Take-away dinner....

2009-05-16T03:11:00.005+12:00

Suddenly I have some thoughts about my daily dinner...

Recently I always bought and take away dinner from the hawker centre/food court...

sometimes.... I really do not know what to eat...

But, I need to eat because I am freaking hungry...

Recently I ate alone often....

Sometimes, It is not about the Food which I repeat eating a million times....

It is not about what I am eating...

Well eventually I just swallow everything to silent my growling stomach.

The point is that...

the feeling of eating alone...

Is very.... Tasteless...

Sometimes I wish there could be a partner sitting and eating with me... be it my roommate or my colleague... or a friend... or a stranger....

We can have some small talk & release some anger....

The food might sucks but at least I have someone to share my 'dinner' with....

rather than keeping the words all inside and just swallowing the rice...

It could have taste a lot better......

去年今天...

2009-05-15T02:55:00.002+12:00

去年的今天.... 我的印象很深刻.....

不是什么分手,生日.... 只是工作上... 跟一个变态的老巫婆 和一个皮股洞合作做一个会议....

那个过程整整折磨了我数个月.... 那时, 我还新, 什么都不会... 所以被人耍到很过瘾...

我曾经告诉自己... 如果我决定丢信... 第一个理由... 就是忍无可忍啦!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

可是.... 结果.... 这个变态会议结束后.... 我就松了一口大气...

始终... 我没丢到信.... 而且... 之后.... 也跟那个老巫婆再度合作了两次....

我也渐渐麻木了....

转眼间.... 已一年了.... 真的很不可思议....

我在这浪费了我人生的黄金时代....

这个月... 历史又重来.....

没完没了的EMAIL.... 做工不知不觉已过晚餐时间....

今晚9点半才离开.... 看来WEEKEND又得回来....

那种感觉.... 我真的超怕....

不是因为我懒, 不想做....

是因为.... 一直的牺牲... 都是在帮别人抹屎抹尿...

因为某些皮股洞... 做事慢拖拖.... 犹疑不觉... 拿不定注意....

就一拖再拖.... 等到终于要大便时, 才叫你立即挖个洞给他/她....

而且... 那些人, 6点就不见人影.... 去HAPPYＨＯＵＲ．．．．

赚的钱又入他／她的口袋.... 我又没份!

现在．．．．我已很累很累了．．．．

大家互利互惠..... 就好了吧．．．

应该写个＇服＇字给自己．．．．

未来的路还很长远．．．

该时时刻刻提醒自己．．．　别做井底之蛙了．．．

该．．．　看一看世界了吧．．．

：）

Ｐ／Ｓ：　之前的打令是我的好友啦．．．　他现在很红．．．　写一写他，　我的ＢＬＯＧ　ＴＲＡＦＦＩＣ很繁忙的哦! 说不定...Nuffnang的广告商会进来... :p

Special Feature: My Darling

2009-05-13T03:19:00.002+12:00

My Darling went for a detour with the police last week....

But why they hold his ketiak ar?

But now he is okay liao lah...

still round and chubby....

Take care my darling.... :)

哈。。。。。。。。。

2009-05-12T02:49:00.003+12:00

倒数。。。

倒数。。。。。

倒数。。。。。。。。

哈哈哈哈哈。。。。。。。。。

Jerk of the Day

2009-05-10T15:50:00.004+12:00

I met this friend's friend in Double O yesterday...

The starting line was:

What's your name... where you work... bla bla bla...

Then... out of a sudden.

Jerk : So, How Old Are You ar?

Leng Kuan: Age is a woman's secret.

Jerk : Common lah. tell me lah.... let me guess... I think you are 25..... (keep pestering)

Leng Kuan: Age is a woman's secret.

Jerk : Aiya... Just tell me are you older than that or younger....

Leng Kuan: -_____-

Then....

the next question was:

Jerk :Do you like the music here?

Leng Kuan: Not Bad ar....

Jerk : I come here often... cause I love the music here....

Leng Kuan: Ooo.... But I prefer RnB..... (Btw, Double O is more to retro)

Jerk : I HATE R&B LOH!!!!!!!!!!!!! Really HATE R&B LOH.........
(with Very Strong & Reinforcing Tone)

Leng Kuan: -___________-"

Leng kuan has ended the conversation instantly.

Food for thought:
Never ask a woman's age by force. If I wanna tell, I will, If not, shut up.
Never say you hate R&B in front of me.
Fuck off.

- the end-

那种感觉.....

2009-05-07T03:07:00.004+12:00

每天看Facebook朋友的照片...

不是情侣照...

就是个人照....

要不就是大头照....

不然就是公幹的照.... 跟同事,老板.... 等.

偶尔也看到一大班朋友去旅行的照片....

这点... .我比较羡慕的吧....

以现在的行情... 想找3个人去旅行....简直就是Mission Impossible....

第一: 没钱

第二: 没假

第三: 没时间

第四: 如果以上都OK, 不如跟另一半去二人世界.

好心酸.... 那种日日闹闹的欢乐声.... 兴高彩裂的度假心情....

好像变得好陌生...

看到别人的群体照片... 感觉好孤单....

回想一下....

好怀念那种感觉.....

deja vu

2009-05-05T02:07:00.008+12:00

What are the odds?

There are like hundreds of hotels in HK...

and This is one of the hotel room I stayed a night in HK last time.

and it so happened to be the 'Quarantined' Hotel in HK at the moment...

A very frustating and 无奈 situation.....

Imagine if you have planned your holiday or work to HK... then all out of a sudden you are quarantined in a hotel for 7 DAYS!!!

You can't go out, can't do anything, except wandering around the lobby & watch TV in the room.

Wah Lao.... Very ham hor....

Imagine if this happened few months back, I could have been stucked and gone crazy....

There's also a video from an 'insider' of the hotel.

Click this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oxtcDIlYlVA

Let's just hope the worst will go away SOON...

God... Please bless us...

Please Go Away.....

2009-05-02T13:31:00.005+12:00

You will bring catastrophe to us...

to Tourism, Hospitality, Business, Economy, Lifestyle....

For Selfish Reason,

You will disrupt my future plans...

I have enough of civil unrest...

I have enough of bankruptcy...

I have enough of cost cutting...

I have enough of job lay-offs...

I DON'T NEED another OUTBREAK to make things BETTER!!!!!

GO AWAY....... You BLoody H1N1!!!!

The Day After Tomorrow...

2009-04-29T02:05:00.003+12:00

The World is coming to an End...

the worst of economic crisis is not over....

and now It's the beginning of Pandemic Outbreak...

and soon everyone will die one by one...

God Bless You...

她妈的...

2009-04-25T21:39:00.003+12:00

今天太阳猛烈, 是晒衣的大好日子...

她妈的... 把衣服塞进洗衣机, 又不要洗, 明知道明天才会洗.... 什么意思.....

然后明天又霸占整个晒衣台.... 又没我的位....

真的KANASAI.....

拜一我做工了... 又没时间洗啦????

她妈的.........

Write中文

2009-04-25T01:56:00.004+12:00

Today I arranged airport pick up for my colleagues in Beijing.

I called the Driver and he asked me to sms him the flight details.

To make things easy, I use simple english.

I send the sms like this:

Sunday. 26 April.
Mr Peter Barron. Flight BAXXXX from London. Arrive 0930.
Mr Melvin Toh. Flight MUXXXX from Shanghai. Arrive 1420.
Mr Sundaran Para. Flight CAXXXX from Singapore Arrive 1530.

(not real name)

Then I called him and checked if he got it.

Then he said in Mandarin: Can you send me in chinese? and which airline.? If you can't never mind, I will try to figure out then.

So, to Not-let-him-try-to-figure-out, I Typed in Chinese.

In which, I need to Google to get the Terms in Chinese!!! at the same time I'm bombarded with tonnes of nonsense incoming emails, and so it TOOK me a freaking Half an Hour just to type this in my phone:

星期日.4月26日.
Mr Peter Barron. 航班号 BAXXXX来自伦敦。英国航空公司. 国际到港 0930
Mr Melvin Toh. 航班号 MUXXXX 来自上海。中国东方航空. 国内到港 1420
Mr Sundaran Para 航班号 CAXXXX 来自新加坡。中国国际航空. 国际到港 1530

Then I called him again, he said in mandarin again: Oh very clear. Good good. No problem.

Phewwwwwwwwwww.....

(-_-")

Fast & Furious IV

2009-04-19T17:54:00.003+12:00

Movie night out with Danielle yesterday...

This movie is sooo HollyWood Production... The plots, the actions, the drama, the stunts, the effects, is really soooo HollyWood.

Anyway, there's always a reason why this movie is selling like hotcakes...

Not because they make it cross-border between LA - Mexico this time... (though it's interesting about the tunnel)

I think despite the Speed, the Technology, the Loud Engines of the modified cars, there're always something to do with hotbabes with Tight Ass in short short skirts & short short pants with freaking sexy boots or heels. (Which makes women like me feels like a piece of shit on earth)

Anyway, I've been following the sequence of the movie since the first production and I must admit I do like the stars in this movie right from the beginning.

Vin Diesel has never fails to impress me...

Talking about Paul Walker in a formal suit. My god... can he be less charming in any way?

Michelle Rodriguez looks rowdy yet extremely HOT...

and not to forget Jordana Brewster with her ultimate sexy eyes & lips...

Okay, when is the V then?

Weird.... disturbing thoughts...

2009-04-17T01:58:00.003+12:00

I started off with my intensive training programme and things are still on scheduled currently though I'm suffering from some muscle pain. The funny thing is that I went and jogged at the Park where I used to lived last year. It is like 400 meters away from where I'm staying now.

I have never step my foot on the park during my entire stay last time and I paid the bloody California Fitness a monthly shit of S$95 for the entire year. My Previous block is just next to the park. What an idiot I am. =.=

Today after jogging I had dinner with my roommie. We sat on the table... today was quite unusual.. we are speechless... something in our mind... disturbing... hence there is no conversation between us. It seems weird though.

A sudden recall, I realized, It has been more than a DECADE since we know each other.
I knew her since 14 years old? wow my goodness. 10 years later and we ended up eating on the same table, speechless and not knowing why the hell are we here.

10 years... is a really long journey... from a rebellious teenager ==> more rebellious mid twenty. =.=

Where will I be in one more decade to come? I can't really imagine. Or perhaps I don't really want to imagine. What is certain is that I wasn't thinking of becoming what I am today a decade ago... or perhaps I have never imagine what I want to be anyway? I was too busy to even bothered about my future.

Ten years down the hill...

Can you foresee what will I be doing?

1) become an aunty cooking dinner (2 vege + 1 meat) and boil soup for the kids + do laundry.
2) high end corporate business women (single + complicated)
3) middle income group. normal working civilians. ( married w/wo kids + keep paying loan debt until I die)
4) nobody. low end + useless (single + miserable)

Wah lao... how ar?

Arggggggghhhhhh

2009-04-14T20:37:00.001+12:00

ARRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Easter Weekend @ Home

2009-04-14T02:28:00.009+12:00

There's no place Like home...

This weekend I didn't do much actually...

Laze around, watched DVDs, watched Astro.... Spent most of the time at home with mummy...

However I realized I have spent quite alot of money actually....

Introducing my new pet: Tom & Jerry

They aint cheap ar.... The luxurious home & them & their food cost me RM90 already.... =.=

x x x x x

Then, a special retreat to a buffet restaurant with my mum at Mont Kiara Solaris...

** I think I am amazed by myself to drive all the way there to a place I have never been to. Though getting lost half way and ask for directions. ^_^

The deco is OK lah... the variety of food is OK also lah...

what's disappointing was I heard the Oysters are really BIG, but when I saw it was just really normal size... =.=

But anyway, I don't really like the dessert counter like this:

I prefer it to be openly displayed & reachable...

The costs was RM88++ per pax.

However, my mum got stomach upset after the dinner.... wasted food.. =.=

Anyway I think I preferred The Line in Shangri-La Singapore. The interior itself is already very tempting. :)

Anyone who's into Buffet should try The Line instead.. highly recommended.

x x x x x

Then I spent RM90 for the dental scaling. The stupid dentist talked so much grandfather stories! Very annoying loh.... =.=

x x x x x

Then I spent RM140 at the hair saloon. Cut & Dye. But nobody actually notices the difference. Cause it turns out to be the same color & abit of trimming. =.=

x x x x x

Then I came home yesterday boarding 6pm bus. Stucked in Tuas Checkpoint for almost 45 mins. =.=

Then arrived after midnight, kena surcharged 50% by the cab... sien..... =.=

x x x x x

And Here we go again.... a brand new week....

Back in the Sin City....

x x x x x

Oh ya... Due to a gentle reminder by Inkmason...

I have launch my intensive abs training programme effectively tomorrow....

Starting with:

1) Jog for 3 Big Rounds at the Park after work
2) 30 Sit Ups
3) Bicycle Exercise (lie down & stretch) 5 mins
4) Vertical Leg Crunch 5 mins
5) Plank on Elbow & Toes 5 mins

Currently scheduled for the next 3 months.... ^_^

Yippie....

2009-04-09T02:10:00.002+12:00

Going Home loo...

Hee.

Pulau Ubin Excursion Trip

2009-04-08T03:13:00.006+12:00

Last saturday, went to Pulau Ubin with Danielle. She wanted to try out her DSLR.

It is a tiny island situated near north east of singapore.

We took a bumboat ride at the Changi Point Ferry Terminal.

Cost S$2.50 one way.

Rented a bike each at S$6 per bike. (Stupid aunty sure cheated me... it only wrote S$2 there)

Half way up hill, wanted to dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....................

Danielle practicing her photography skills... while I am dreaming and feeding mosquitoes...

Though there're 3 major problems with her:

1) Wrong Shoe

2) Wrong Pants

3) A Big DSLR Bag that weight almost 2kg....

WHAT A JOURNEY....

**anyway she has some good snap shots, can view her facebook pics...

The Road less taken?

2009-04-05T15:57:00.011+12:00

It is a lazy sunday again.

I woke up amazingly early at 9.10am despite the exhausting excursion trip to Pulau Ubin with Danielle yesterday. I thought I will be having whole body ache today. Ain't that bad actually.

Today is actually Cheng Meng(清明). A Day which I actually skipped for the past few years. Not intentionally. Just that I was away from home. (Penang & Singapore)
Okay. I admit I am lazy to catch a 5 hours bus journey ride and wake up early to make my way to the graveyard. Does this sound more like me. Thousand Apologies to my ancestors and grandpas.

My cousin MSN me today. She drove my mum home from KL to Tampin and was saddened by my miserable mother's current life.

She asked me: Do you intend to come back KL to work? I said: Nope.
She said: Do you know how lonely she is? I said: Yes.
*Other dialogues were removed.

Am I really selfish? To be here and leave everything behind. It's not that I am happy here either. I am also miserably lonely. No Homecook food. Always the hawker stall and No one to care for me.

But I know... why I am here. I need the money to pursue my dreams. I know for sure. I am unable to achieve anything I want back home due to Financial Commitments and the depressing fact that Ringgit is so bloody low.

Give me a few more years... When I am done with being rebellious. I will settle down. Find a good man and get married... If life is what this is supposed to be?

Or Perhaps...

I never want to settle down... I want to continue being rebellious for the rest of my life?

I don't know...

I have an awful high school memories. Back then.. My mum was really stringent about me. All she wanted me to do was to get good grades and master my piano skills. I was eventually having tuition from Mon to Sun and music lessons every week which I hated so much. Can you believe I actually HAVE a Grade 8 Certificate in Piano and couldn't even play a god damn happy birthday song. I really don't have the talent in music. The reason I passed the grades is because I ONLY learnt the 3 damn songs for the examination throughout the year and not to forget the theories, which I think I got until Grade 6.

I wasted hell lots of money in this. Many friends were envious as their parents couldn't afford them for piano lesson. I admit. I should be very SHAMEFUL about myself. My mum wanted me to learn piano because she wasn't able to when she was young and wanted me to have an extra skills so that I can eventually teach piano next time which is a very GOOD INCOME career path. I stopped my lessons when I was having my SPM and never continued since then.

Back to tuition lessons. I Skipped Classes to go for movies or cyber cafes. Back then there was this craze for ICQ, IRC stuffs. Also, Star Craft. I actually told hell lots of lies so that I can joined my friends to do nonsense stuffs like this.

I was in a All Girls School. Being the rebellious teenager who is lacked of attention, I joined the wrong group of friends doing all sort of nonsense things. and in the end I was betrayed by my so called 'best' friends and I really wanted to commit suicide. School days for me were like hell.

Fortunately things get better when I was about to graduate, I found the Right Mixed of True Friends, I work hard and I got a NOT BAD result lah.. My mum was proud of me that time. I made it to Form 6 and I made it to Local University.

That was went I left home for the 1st time. And when I started my own life without staying with my family. Back home, I hated my bro, for always fighting with me to use the car or the internet. I hated my mum for the curfew. I hated my dad for being ignorance. And so I left for 3 years up north.

When things screwed up Up North, I came Down South.

Thought of having a change in my life. Thought of learning new things in this New Country. Thought of Earning more Money...

And yes it did changed my life. I did earn more. I learnt alot. After 1 year and 4 mths here... Eventually I caged myself inside my room today realizing what I've ever done for my entire life... and now I feel the emptiness and loneliness lying deep down my heart... with the tremedous guilt of being here.

This is like going no where... argh... What should I do?

and, very soon, I am gonna Do something more crazy & rebellious in which will break her heart even more...

Well...

The Road less taken?

Can I?

I cannot believe I am doing this...

2009-04-02T03:53:00.002+13:00

I Just Bought this in Kinokuniya.

Ha Ha Ha Ha...

Well well well... Leng Kuan is heading for a change...

*obviously she has become crazy. hehehe.

Just as I thought it would happen....

2009-03-30T20:25:00.002+13:00

It Did....

wtf....

:(

宁静的夜晚....

2009-03-29T05:22:00.002+13:00

今晚本来约好朋友去看看整个城市熄灯的情景... 一面野餐...一面赏月... 感觉应该很棒吧...

哪知,一封SMS来...

生病了... 不能去...

啊, 显掉啦...

按按电话簿...

从A按到Z.... 都没个适合的人选...

百多个名字...

没有一个可拨的...

不是人在大马,就是个有节目咯...

同事名字多得很.. 可是不想看见他们... 厌倦...

突然间,觉得特别的空虚...

室友做工去了... 家里没人... MSN也没人...

好寂寞的星期六啊...

已重看电话簿的名字几白次了...

最后,放弃了...

在家看韩剧算啦...

我很讨厌这种空虚的感觉...

自己吃打包的晚餐... 自己在8.30分关灯...

真的好希望有个知己一起出去吹风...能够一起聊天... 谈谈心事...

这房间狭窄...空气不流通... 在这可悶死了...

我终于明白... 朋友其实不需多... 知己几个已经太好了...

可是...........

你们去哪了啦??? :(

Crap

2009-03-28T16:11:00.002+13:00

There might be some changes on my upcoming travel plans.

I heard some bitching about cost cutting and what they are proposing is just really crap.

Anyway, I'm not in a position to decide anything.

And they don't have a firm decision that can inform me in advanced.

Damn... I have my own travel plans and it's a freaking long weekend. Don't want to waste it for nothing.

This is just driving me nuts. Screwed them!!!

ANYWAY...

Am celebrating Earth hour today probably at Esplanade Park...

Turn Off Turn Off...

Pissed Off Pissed Off...

Growing?!?!

2009-03-23T16:52:00.005+13:00

I felt that when I joined the working force. I just have to be really engaged to my job commitment either I like it or not.

Before graduation, I have my dreams of pursuing a very ambitious career path. After graduation, due to desperation probably.... things aint flowing that smoothly...

I wanted to work in Events line. Cause, it sounds more 'fun' and 'happening' than working in a Bank, Office, Factories, etc.

In a way, meeting more people and dealing with all sort of people is a crucial part of the job which is what I love and at the same time, Hate it so bloody much.

There are many many many people that I met, which some of them of course I kept in touch and made good friends. and some, Never. Ever.

I realize it's just part of life that everyone has a different character, opinion, way of doing things, and way to get things done and how they react is also mainly bond by their life commitments... which in somehow, someway, it will trigger a huge amount of anger and pissing off others which might make your life very miserable.

In the end, to the bottom line, why the hell are you still doing this? Oh well, don' tell me about Passion, don't tell me about Ambition anymore. It just come to very significant fact of life, which is your 'rice bowl' and that's what keeping you doing the same thing everyday.

Some people complaint about the same old things, repetition of Mon to Fri, Last year to this year to next year, how the same system sucks, how the same people sucks... in the end, without realizing, have been stucked to the same old thing for some years. Or probably wasting the Golden ages of Youth... without improving any further, without the passion to seek further knowledge, emotionless and Waiting for paychecks every month...

The truth is: the problems never change. and never will.

My Form 6 tuition teacher once said: Don't be a Katak under the Tupperware. (井底之蛙)
I believe I am. I believe We all are.

I don't like the idea to limit yourself to a space that you are comfortable with. You might be the most outstanding person but the Space is just too small for you to grow or even expand.

Probably from time to time, I should 'Refresh' myself... to remind me...

What is the reason I am living for....

@_@

2009-03-19T03:42:00.004+13:00

呕血啊....

I am a loser...

2009-03-15T03:00:00.003+13:00

I am sitting in front of my Laptop today as usual...

Logging in my MSN and Facebook as usual...

and I read an email today...

It was from my Mum...

I feel like slapping myself in the face after reading...

I am such a selfish brat. I am leaving her all alone by herself at home, facing the four walls and the box. The house is empty with no human being, no human voice, no nothing...

I am just too obsessed about me, myself and I with so many wonderful plans. But I have abandoned her to suffer alone, to live in tears, and living in loneliness and emptyness everyday...

So what if I have everything I want in this world... I have abandoned the women that loves me so much, that brought me to this world, that feeds me and took care of me and gave me everything for the past 24 years...

I deserved the biggest SLAP on my face.

What a useless daughter I am...

Can't concentrate driving....

2009-03-13T03:57:00.003+13:00

wow.....

To buy or not....

2009-03-12T03:58:00.004+13:00

Nikon D60.

For a Start.

S$1k.

Hmmmm...

OR

Nikon D90.

Leap with the BEST.

S$2k

Hmmm... Hmmm....

ALOHA....

2009-03-10T04:05:00.004+13:00

Recently I met alot of cool people from all over the world who really inspired me to travel to a lot a lot of places.

I got to know this really really nice beach boy from Hawaii.

I promised, I WILL GO TO HONOLULU...

I WILL BRING MY ASS THERE, AND GET MY BIKINI LINE TANNED...

I Don't Care how many transits I have to take...

I Don't Care how much it will cost me...

I WANT TO GO THERE!!!! WOO HOO~

ALOHA HAWAII!!!

Okay, Can I put this as my 2010 resolution? yeah!!!

Anyone interested? =p

:)

2009-03-05T18:43:00.003+13:00

I was talking to this British Lady earlier this morning.

She is 62 and her hubby is 65.

She said she married him when she was 20. So, she did not really get to do what's called an independent life for her at that time.

Just following her husband to everywhere he goes. Traveling around the world.

And then she was complaining that he likes to nag her. and he is anxious about things. and she was wondering, why can't he just be patient, just wait.

and so, this and that those small little things which can create some unneccessary arguments.

It's funny isn't it. When you see old couples together, they either sit there and don't speak at all or they will start complaining about each other.

But I know, deep down inside, they love each other and can't afford to lose each other.

The feeling is like: when you have been with someone for so many years.. it's just hard to keep compromising on little little things that annoys you. However, you just have to live with it because you don't seems to have another choice anyway.

I find it pretty funny when she complaint about little little things about him.

I actually kinda envy them. Besides seeing my own parents in a living hell. There's a sense of belonging somewhere when you get annoyed by that person everyday.

It's sweet...

I am very bad....

2009-03-04T03:38:00.003+13:00

I take people for granted.

I insisted guys who went out with me pay for meals.

I only asked people out once. and then reject following invitation. Not because I am not keen anymore... just that I am terrified of what will happened next.

I am spoiled.

I don't know why I am like this.

This is hurting people...

I am a bad girl...

Bad bad bad.....

>_<

lazy sunday diary

2009-03-01T19:49:00.005+13:00

A day when I can wake up anytime I want without setting the alarm...

Enjoying my cup of Nescafe while turning on my laptop and signing in my msn...

Tried to peek at the living room to see if my landlord is around the kitchen area... and once she's not there, I dragged my laundry bag quickly to the washing machine... and stuffed the whole pile of dirty clothes throughout the week into the front load machine. and then hurry off to my room.

Why did it so enigmatically???

I had enough of her naggings... not on a sunday please... -_-"

Took a bath & went downstairs to buy a packet of economy rice and a bottle of green tea for my lunch.

Switched on my Yahoo Launchcast... listening to some big hits and eating my rice. My roomie is not around... I have the entire room myself.

After lunch, I hang out my clothes... typical sporean style of hanging... with a few batang of metal insert into several small holes at the kitchen window...

Had some invitation to go out... for movies, for outings... nah... all rejected.
Don't feel like going out to the buzzing city with half the Spore population doing their weekend household shopping or what-so-ever thingy which you have to queue to get something in every single damn place.

Browsing some budget airline websites... air asia promo ends today... I just realized they have direct routes from Sg to Bali now... Lion Air is still cheaper somehow... thinking of going there for a weekend breakaway on Good Friday weekend...
However, can't find a travel mate... my girlfriends wanted to go with their boyfriends or some running on low cash flow... had some boyfriends who wanted to go with me but I just don't really want any intimate romance drama in action there...

and So, the beach plan is scrapped until further search of an ideal travel mate. Shit.

I just need a Tanned + some bikini photo shoots... and a Balinese massage... it's just so simple... yet so hard... grrrrr...

Had a TVB marathon...

Suddenly, it rains!!! Rushing to get my clothes back in again... Almost all wet soaked with sudden downpour... Shit...

Now... continuing my lazy sunday...

I think the Bon Jovi song is a bit distracting... so, I am removing it...

Untitled

2009-02-27T01:54:00.003+13:00

I've met some Men with different characters, attitude, background, point-of-view, etc etc recently.

and though some of them certainly possess some qualities for an ideal bf... but the main problem is I don't have that kinda 'feeling' towards that man...

however, I can still conclude that 10 out of 10 men that I've met... is Horny. (and so they said: if you are not horny, you are not a man -_-")

And when they started to get serious, and start being overzealous about me... I am totally terrified and I just turned them away... and backing off...

It's a karma...

I am Hurting People who are Serious about me... and I am getting hurt by people who I am Serious About!!!

I feel as if I am a Player... I can be so enthusiastic at first and then being so bloody cool the next day and forget whatever it has been said and done... Oh I hate myself so much...

I realized I just really don't want to be attached at this stage........

or was he just not my cuppa tea? or am I just making a fool out of myself for turning good people away...

Shucks!!!!

The One?

2009-02-22T04:35:00.002+13:00

I really don't understand this.

I just came back from a wedding dinner.

She was pregnant, hence the wedding.

They quarelled like almost every other day. He is a control freak but she is an easy-going person.

I've seen her crying many times. Arguments. Arguments. Arguments. I don't know what the arguments are about but the main reason probably because he is really a control freak.

And one fine day, she was back with the Ultrasound report. And, that is how the wedding plan came off.

Just like that...

She is tied with him forever.

I don't see the happiness in her eyes. I feel the sorrow instead.

I don't understand. Is this really call LOVE?

Having to put a Big Smile at the dinner, in front of so many relatives & friends... Did she put on a mask? act in a drama? I don't know.

is he 'The One'?

I am speechless......

totally speechless...

...

2009-02-17T01:28:00.005+13:00

An angels smile is what you sell

You promise me heaven, then put me through hell

Chains of love got a hold on me

When passions a prison, you cant break free

Youre a loaded gun

Theres nowhere to run

No one can save me

The damage is done

Chorus:

Shot through the heart

And youre to blame

You give love a bad name

I play my part and you play your game

You give love a bad name

Paint your smile on your lips

Blood red nails on your fingertips

A school boys dream, you act so shy

Your very first kiss was your first kiss goodbye

Youre a loaded gun

Theres nowhere to run

No one can save me

The damage is done

What am I looking for?

2009-02-16T00:39:00.003+13:00

Suddenly I realized, I don't even know myself anymore....

Who am I? and What am I looking for?

...........

Feeling Down....

2009-02-08T05:43:00.001+13:00

Haih......